.,;:Purple's Piece of Mind:;,.

Must Watch!

2011-01-12T15:45:00.005+08:00

Today's Dope

2010-12-30T21:36:00.003+08:00

More of Gotan Project's 2010 songs:

Today's Dope

2010-12-30T21:30:00.001+08:00

Gotan Project's 2010 songs:

Today's Dope

2010-12-29T12:18:00.002+08:00

Will be catching SAW 3D premiere tonight, so won't be blogging.

Good For Me

2010-12-28T21:57:00.003+08:00

I kinda did alot of thinking today, on what I should do to that's Good For Me. I've been lazy, been denying, and been procrastinating. I have been just wanting to go home straight after work, too lazy to do anything or go anywhere.
TERRIBLE RIGHT!!!

I am going to start doing what I want to do, without thinking and analyzing too much. This is one thing i hate so much about myself. I would go into many layers of deeper thoughts when I have to do something, even the smallest or simplest thing. It's really tiring, that's why it tires me out so much, hence end up procrastinating or just avoiding it. And I end up not doing anything!

I wanna be different next year, my new year resolution. I wanna do something different. I'm gonna start running again. I'm gonna for blardy F sake go for my driving practical lessons. I have 6 months left before my advance theory expires. Damn this is the 3rd time! I'm gonna work towards having a meaning in life. I'm turning 30 next year and it's really time to do something about my life. Am I craving for more? Perhaps I am, just not realising it cos i have been contented with what I have. Or maybe i'm not, hense the unhappiness. Happy or not? I don't even know.

Whatever it is, and whatever it takes, i'm just gonna start doing what's good for me.
Life will be beautiful again.

Today's Dope

2010-12-28T14:47:00.008+08:00

Gotan Project in SG 20 March 2011.
I am so gonna catch this. So sensual and sexy and awesome!

Click HERE For more details:

Tranquility

2010-12-27T21:23:00.002+08:00

Whoa...it's been more than a year since I last blogged!
I have so much going on in my mind and my life...and as usual... I don't really like to talk about it...been bottling up all my problems...maybe that's the cause of me looking properous...or rather..bloated.

Life has been better this year, in a few ways, but time really flies. 2010 is almost gone in a few days time. I finally have a stable job, been with the co for 15 months already.

Love life has never been easy for me, what's new anyways, it's always the case.
But since I have chosen this path to be with him, I have learnt to be stronger and wiser in many ways, endurance level has gotten better too. We've been together for 16 months, unbellievable. Many didn't think we would even last a year. I know I am being silly and not being practical, choosing this path to be with a thai. But the most important thing that kept this R/S going on is his pure heart and sincerity.

I have been in a state of tranquility lately...my mind and soul so calm and peaceful...still...stagnant...quiet. I have been alone alot lately. I hate to admit this but I'm feeling lonely. My tranquil mind, or am I lonely? The feelings are mixed up. I'm kept busy, I have endless things to do, had the x'mas party to plan, but at the end of the day, I end the night in lonely tranquility. I know this is just a little phase everyone will go through once in a while. I don't know if this is just a passing phase for me or is this a wake up call. If this is a wake up call, I want to know what's that something I need to work on. I am very sure there is something that I need to make some adjustments to, but part of me is in denial, not wanting to face the music or to know what is really wrong with me.

Who can tell me what is wrong with me? who do i want to hear it from so it won't hurt that much?

So many things has happened this year, both good and bad, losing friends, living in denial.
It's really time for a big change, but what is it that I have to do, to be happy again.
Am I happy? Or am I just living in denial. I feel like it's a mix of both.
I can't deny i want something more than what I have now. I am starting to feel I need more and can't settle for too little. I'm starting to feel i can't continue living in a perpetual lie, deceiving my self and pretending to be happy. I need to find my true soul, my true heart. I felt i have lost myself, I don't feel my existence in myself, or with my friends.

Am i just feeling too tired to be feeling all these negativity, or is this all that i'm experiencing a genuine encounter.

He has been too busy working, he hardly have time for me. I hardly see my friends, I don't know why. Do i choose to be alone, or am i being neglected.

X'mas party was a 80% success, and followed by a failure Ferry Corsten session at zouk on xmas day. Then followed by alot of sleep. I didn't really get any nice present either. Is this a great x'mas? Or is it just my lonely neglected heart feeling cynical.

My heart and mind and soul is in such a state of tranquility, i almost feel like a lifeless zombie that just wants to sleep and do not want to be disturbed.
At the end of the day, I would be walking from the bus stop to home like a cold cold soul.
I just want peace and quiet...

I AM

2009-07-28T01:21:00.002+08:00

I AM...28 now... Happy Birthday to myself..
It's my birthday today but i'm totally not in the mood...not in the mood to celebrate or do anything...and I don't feel happy at all...after all that has happened around me...

I received a really great present from my buddy and boss (buddy's wife), a Juicy Couture handbag!!! Boss wanted me to take off or even time off on my birthday but I refused. I have nothing to do and no where to go...how sad rite. LOL...
So I choose to work...keep myself busy...drown myself in work.

Wanted to have a big celebration this year...thought of celebrating on a yatch at sentosa 1 degree 15...cos of 3 reasons...28th year, 28 is the chinese symbolic number of a rooster, and my birthday on the 28th. But....really...not in the right situation and mood to have such a big celebration... financially can't afford too!!! LOL

He didn't know it's my bd...cos I didn't tell him...cos he didn't ask...so I never told. I wanted to end it...cos the r/s is really stagnant...nothing is happening at all...and I really mean nothing...so I thought I should move on...and I dun want to feel sad on my bd...so I thought I should end it with him..just the day before my bd...which I did...Hope it's going to stay this way...but i kinda feel upset ending it just like that... and he's also upset...he claims that he dun like to feeling of knowing that he's not with me...sweet talking again i suppose. ARGH!!!

Apart from this r/s problem...there's many other problems why i'm feeling down and moody...not just cos of this silly r/s...but i'm just hanging in there now...seriously drowning myself in work and work and work.
Can't wait to unwind with my pals this fri... and can't wait for national day.. Progressions with SVR at powerhouse...omg...can't wait to trancing trancing again!!!

Time To Rest

2009-07-22T23:18:00.002+08:00

Finally had time to rest today...after working full force at Nana's for 4 days. My new and stable job at Far East as a retail asst manager. Totally drained physically...can't even feel my toes...but got great sense of achievement and I enjoy doing what i'm doing. Lazed at home the whole day today...on my new sofa and watching tv. So shiok. Totally rested my feet and legs.

I worked almost 11 hours a day... totally no time and energy for other activities...and kinda start to feel a little numb and giving up on the r/s...since we're both so busy and have no time for each other at all...and he played me out...didn't even inform me if he could go watch OTOT with me... ended up in a really embarrassed and awkward situation... how sad...how silly...
That's why I decided that he's so impossible and ended the r/s with him. That's when he starts to get upset and starts giving me the attention again...and claims that he really wants to be with me...just that he really can't afford the time... WTF... and so we're back to square one again...this seems like a never ending game...when is this ever going to end? ??!!! ARGH!!!!

We talked...and we both realised that we both feel alot for each other...but deep down inside knowing that it's impossible for us to be together...for many reasons... cos we're both too busy...and cos he's not able to accept me for who I am..my nightlife..my social networking activities...
But we're still together now... I seriously dunno for what reason... why are we both not willing to let go...is he really serious or whatever he says is just sweet nothings that is messing with my mind and heart again....

Was too free had nothing to do at home today so had so much time to think of all these nonsense....but when at work... I was so occupied with work and feeling tired I dun even think of this...I just let it be...So can't wait to get back to work tomorrow. And so looking forward to busy weekend to hit the sales target...
But I do miss him too... :(

Always A Fool

2009-07-16T19:14:00.002+08:00

I've always been a fool...as always...when it comes to... relationship.

I'm in a so-called relationship (r/s)...a supposedly serious r/s but doesn't seems like a r/s at all. The same guy mentioned in the earlier posts. He claims he is serious bout the r/s and he likes me alot...but yet...I don't seem to feel it or see it at all! We meet only once a week cos he claims he is really busy busy busy with work and tired tired tired from work. Oh what a lousy but yet useful excuse! He's really responsible and serious at work...but that places me the back of his mind and the least important on his list! He hardly calls me or sms me. But he expects me to sms and msn him! He gets upset when I don't sms him or msn him the entire day...but yet he has a habbit of not replying my sms and I'm not suppose to get mad or question him! How selfish! Oh well ok he didn't say i'm not allowed to question him...but I hate to question him cos I find it irritating myself too!

He is a devil...but he really makes me smile from the heart...from deep within...and when i'm with him...I'm really in cloud 9...but when we go our seperate ways after our date...I would start to feel sour and worry and...feel sad all over again...

True enough...I do not trust him enough...just as I dun trust any other guys...cos i've really seen too much negative stuffs going on...
I've been very pessimistic...I must admit and agree...cos of my past experiences and what I see and know around me. I'm not trying to find excuses for him or trying to cover up...just like the movie "he's just not that into you"...but..i guess it's really just not fair that...I'm always doubting him...and for being so pessimistic about everything and this r/s.

I'm starting to try to be more optimistic about this r/s...trying to have faith in this r/s...trying to believe that he is really serious about this r/s...but yet... action really speaks louder than words...I'm just waiting for the day he would really show his sincererity and seriousness. I seriously dunno how far this can go...cos his expectations of me seems to be quite high. He expects me to quit clubbing...and be a stay home girl...I know these are ridiculous and unreasonable request...but yet his request is really for my own good if I were to really think deep and analyze them.

I'm really puzzled and lost as to how much faith and effort I should put into this r/s. Of cos I do like him alot...otherwise I would have just let go and move on. However...part of me tells me that it's really time to settle down and not be that playful and wild me anymore...but that's just really me...why can't he just accept me for who I am and we both meet in the middle to try to work things out...if we really like each other enough.

I'm really lost and puzzled...really in dilemma...and don't seem to have the courage to let go of this r/s and move on...which the other side of me tells me that I should just let go and I'll be happier. I've been quite miserable and upset eversince this r/s started...only time I'm happy is when we're out dating. This is not good... this is terrible... how long can I tolerate this...how far can this go... why am I always a fool... :(

Going Wrong

2009-07-16T16:55:00.005+08:00

Everything seems to be going wrong in my life...nothing seems to be right...nothing at all. Family, Work, Love, Money....

A series of unfortunate events...one after another...since 2006...I'm totally devastated... drained... bashed... wasted... hurt... overwhelmed... can't think of any other words to describe how I feel and the state I'm in now.

Of cos...I know I have to be strong...hang in there...be optimistic...be positive...look forward to new beginnings... see the light at the end of the tunnel...look on the bright side. I've done all these...I've been very strong...I've been putting up a strong, happy and brave front in front of people...but deep inside I feel really lonely and depressed...a really heavy and sadened heart that has been wanting to cry and let it all out but not able to do so.
I've been "acting" and keeping strong to the point of not being able to see or feel myself... can't release my sadness...in simple terms...I've bottled up all my sadness and anger and I'm going to explode (go crazy) soon if I don't start doing something about it!

I used to be a cry baby when I was younger...I cry over little things...over anything...but now...it just seems so hard for me to cry...I wonder why...could be I've been stronger and I've changed.

People always see me as a cheerful bubbly jovial person...in fact...some people also see me as a wild party animal...and dun see me as the homely and filial type. But in true fact...I'm really sad and empty inside me...and i'm really not that wild...and I love to stay home and spend time with my parents... but people just don't see it that way....how sad...

Again and again...massive blows of unfortunate happenings keeps on pushing my knees back down to the hard stone cold ground...after putting in much effort standing up on both feet happily and contented. It's a vicious cycle that I can't seem to get out of it. I know this is part and parcel of life...ups and downs are the norm...and I'll just feel the seriousness and experience it harder as I mature. But really... what's wrong with me... is it me or is it my life...I just can't seem to find the source of the problems I'm encountering and facing. I am really just a sincere and easily contented person...who does not greed! Why do I have to be put through all these tough challenges and obstacles?

I guess it's time for me to go for my meditation session to release all that's in the bottle. I want to be happy again...I want to smile again...I want to be free again...

Friendzone & Intricacy

2009-06-15T01:19:00.003+08:00

Yet another weekend of fun and laughter with my dear friends!!!

Had a great nite at Zirca with Jon O'Bir last nite (sat 13th June 09)...with Kenny, Darren and Charles. Great tracks...not so packed (like Zouk) but I was damn tired and drained from FLEA FLY FLO FUN at F1 Pit Building earlier in the day. Didn't even manage to sell enough to cover my rental cost. Luckily we split one table's rental of $65 between 4 pax. LOL. There were just too many vendors...200 of them... and I think there seems to be more vendors than shoppers. LOL.

Anyways.. our we had our very first OUTDOOR HEALTHY LIFESTYLE outing at East Coast Park today, with Kenny, Roger, Marilyn, Rong, Jyun, Sabbie, Niki and Steven! Quite good attendance for a first time :) All of us cycled but Jyun, Niki and Steven blade. After 1 and half hour of cycling and blading, we continued with 2 games of bowling. Then had Kenny Rogers for dinner.

Silly things that happened today:
- I was rushing out cos was already late to meet the pals at ECP, i wore 2 different slippers and only realised it when I got off the bus at Marine Terrace. LOL. Lucky Kenny lived nearby so went up to change slippers.
- Steven shuffles his way and slip and fell on the bowling lane...nice one.
- My bowling ball fell backwards.
- Kenny missed his strike cos steven shouted out his name loudly to distract him.

Lastly...I know he's a bastard...but seriously I do miss him..and am still thinking of him. I deleted him from my msn..so I won't feel upset when I see him online. Before I deleted him..he doesn't msn me. After I deleted him...he started to msn me..What is he trying to do? He say he does miss me..he's confusing me..he's toying with my feelings... I tot i've already set my heart and mind to move on. But whatever he is doing now...it is intricate when..he keeps coming back into my life...and disheartens my heart and soul...damn...I wonder how long this is gonna last...

Intruder...

2009-06-08T12:57:00.002+08:00

This blardy intruder...came into my life... and wrecked my ship!!!
Argh!!! I hate monday blues and on top of this... clearing up this stupid mess inside my heart and soul and mind!!!

Silly things I did when I fell into his farking trap!

- spent lots on international call and sms with him while I was in melacca.
- Did french mani and pedi and in sweet baby pink and white colour..cos he said we're having dinner with him and his friends...baby pink and white...SO NOT ME MAN!!! ARGH!!! TOO SWEET!!!
- skipped 2 days of work getting over this farker...
- even considered to quit clubbing just so to suit his requirements... (am never gonna change myself for anyone..not this way)
- was stupidly in cloud 9...when it was a mishaps more than a sweet bliss
- naively believed his sweet nothings...and stupidly trusted him...
- think this is enuf of silly things done in 2 weeks..there are more but not to be mentioned... REALLY STUPID BITCH!!!

I know it all happened to soon, and good that it ended fast enough too.. so that I won't get too deeply hurt....cos I'm an emo bitch who gets hurt very easily... ARGH!!! I feel so manipulated and deceived and blah blah blah! Shit ass experience...

Everytime when i'm happy being alone...up on my feet standing tall...some asshole has to come into my life and spoil everything...and I have to start fresh all over again... it's such a terrible vicious cycle that keeps on repeating and repeating... to the point that.. I seriously dunno what's wrong and how to handle it... argh...i'm lost...

Thanks to all those out there..who has indirectly made me a stronger person... and thanks friends for staying by my side see and listen to me cry and go with me through tough times... I'll be ok in no time..and stronger!!!

Walk Away

2009-06-08T00:11:00.002+08:00

In within a short 2 weeks, so many thing has happened. At the end of it, is yet another closure of a new chatper...a chapter of many bizarre ups and downs... time to walk away...

Kenny and I ended the month of Trancing MAYhem...trancing away at 2 days of FREEDOM at Melecca...with a group of new people..who we unfortunatly couldn't really bond well with...10 of us went up to Melacca, A Famosa, in a mini van...with seats half the size of what u can enjoy on Five Star Travels or Grasslands coaches. But we get to have the mini van all to ourselves to transport around for the entire 3 days trip. All 10 of us squeezed in the mini van but somehow had sufficient space in the 3 bedroom villa at A Famosa. Of cos, can't be compared to the one at Sentosa Amara Sanctuary. And for some reason... I got to sleep on the KING SIZE BED in the masterbedroom... all to myself...for both nights!!! WOOHOO!!!! :D And no I didn't pay more..paid the same as everyone else :p Lots of ups and downs during this trip...but then again can't complain or expect much when u're out with a group of 10. So...the next time if such trip is going to happen... it has to be with people who we know or are close with or are ok travelling with...such as...D & F... S & N... P & P... blah blah blah...

FREEDOM:
- Large party venue, with theme-park joy rides...and food stalls (KFC...hotdogs...ice water at RM7 for one big cup)..ample space for people to walk...ample tables and chairs set up for people to sit and eat.
- NO ALCOHOL SOLD AT ALL at the party vicinity... so first nite there...we were all not high enough...
- Very big main stage set up... which cannot be compared at all to Zoukout's main stage...
- Fantabulous awesome generous lazer show! OMFG!!!
- Ferry Corsten's MADE OF LOVE with Betsie Larkin singing live was an awesome one! It almost felt like what I see in ARMIN / Tiesto's DVD.
- Wasn't crowded at all..I feel..as compared to Zoukout...definitely not more than 5000 pax I suppose... cos I dun seem to have problem finding our own people... and there's lots of space to walk around...
- The "merry-go-round" joyride was a good one..really pumped up the adrenaline...good enuf to get the party started..then head over to the main stage...
- Overall... good experience cos it was my first time attending an overseas gig...but how I wish 100% of my heart and soul was there with me...cos it was not...

Bizarre Ups and Downs:
Met someone new...who played mind games...cheated my feelings...who expects me to change my lifestyle for him...wanted me to quit clubbing!!!
If one is to change his / her lifestyle..then that someone will lose her original personalities and unique characteristics which represents who they are. So I have come to realise that...it's not right the right way!!! And his sweet nothings and mind games almost made me fall for his silly trap!
In within 2 weeks... a bizarre love...or should I call it..bizarre mishaps... I shall not go too much into details...but overall..SHITTY EXPERIENCE!!!
Silly me took more than required time to snap out of this whole shitty situation! But at least I've finally woken up...yet another fantabulous experience which made me stronger and wiser...and eyes open much much much bigger...

It's time to walk away...

Together We Rise

2009-05-25T00:45:00.003+08:00

It was yet another hectic week... all cos of the busy schedule with dance practice. We had to perform for AsiaSoft's game fest cum IT show at Suntec Convention on Fri and Sat nite. We had to perform for the dancing game Audition... to one of the Audition's song by our very own JJ Lin...

At the dance practice, there were plenty of hiccups, arguements, disagreements...but of cos there was also fun laughter and joy.. all thanks to Shirley...super lamer joker..LOL. It was really hard work. We manage to pull through something reasonable to be performed on stage at a convention hall, within 2 weeks. And to think that many of us, in fact all of us, has not performed for almost 5 years. Good job ladies..really... credit goes to all 6 of us... All the hard work and effort is recognised. Well done. Group hug...3 cheers. TOGETHER WE RISE!!! Hope there will be another chance to perform together again.. Cos i really miss those performing and bonding days... those were the days..when I was much younger... like..err.. 21, 22? LOL. I'm glad my old bones are still quite HAPPENING!!! cos keeping it up with clubbing and partying...WOOHOO

A&B @ Zouk on 23rd May was good. But damn blardy packed!! even more packed than Markus Schulz and Armin!!! Was contemplating to either go FUEL to check out a new party venue (F1 pit warehouse), or to A&B..but of cos..A&B more impt...lol. And since Jyun and Sabbie chose A&B @ Zouk..so I went with the flow. :D Lucky went to zouk...cos I bumped into someone (one of my ex) who I lost touch with for 5 years already! We were glad to see each other cos he has been trying to contact me but my number changed..so..yah... we're in touch again now... heehee...

I finally get to stay home and rest the entire sunday!!! WOOHOO!!! NEEDED IT SO BADLY!!!
Was watching a Thai horror with my dad... dunno what title also..bought it from JB. I realised...i can get a super good laugh if i'm farking stress, or even if i wanna tighten my abs..by watching thai dvd. Cos..THE SUBTITLES ARE JUST TOO DAMN FUNNY!!! It never made sense and I wonder they direct translated from what language. It really gave me a good laugh.. and plus with my dad adding salt and pepper...it made things even funnier... LOL...

Had a good sunday rest :D Yeah!!!

Rush Hour

2009-05-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

argh....been so busy!!! This entire week had been an overwhemingly busy and tiring one...I'm so busy I feel like crying!!!

So busy with work, helping out at Nana's shop at Far East, and dance practice...can die...my whole body has been aching for days already. No proper sleep every night due to physically tired but mentally awake and I guess cos of overdose of coffee too... argh... and I'm just gonna get more and more busy over the next 2 weeks, till end of May!!!

Finally... the 2 days FREEDOM trip to Meleka has been booked. paid. confirmed. And Kenny has finally made up his blardy mind to go...and for both days...after much convincing...

Attended the PINK DOT event yesterday...and of cos..i dressed pink...and so did 95% others...it was sorta like a gay appreciation day...though the event was nothing fantastic but it was meaningful. It kinda opened up the minds of the public...to love freely. There was this banner that actually says " Do Not Judge A Book By It's Colour" so this event also kinda promotes "Love all colors and races and gender"...
There was traditional performances of different ethnic groups and new generation groups. PInk Lion Dance, Malay Diki Barat, Bhangra Dance...and there was the SingaBore version of PussyCatDolls garnered lots of attention and cheers and whistles. There was also this other grp of chinese...about 10 people I think... performed NOBODY...quite well done I must say. Lastly..the limelight of the event...is for everyone to stand together to form a PINK DOT..as the photographer takes a picture of us up from Furama HOtel...and all to sing the theme song LOVE LOVE LOVE toghether...
About 2500 people supported...so PINK DOT was a SUCCESS!!!
Hip Hip..Hurray! Hip Hip...Hurray!! Hip Hip...Hurray!!!

So much to say but i'm too tired to continue...
i'm desperate for "myself time"...argh...

Come 2 - Gether

2009-05-11T23:33:00.003+08:00

Another weekend of friends coming together to paint the town red and celebrate meaningful occasions.

Saturday:
Markus Schulz @ Zouk on sat nite ( 9th May) was great. But sadly and such a waste that I was too high and lost to really notice his set! But I heard he was good lah. But at least I heard him playing New World...

Glad that many friends (Kenny, Steven, Niki, Kevin, Jyun, Lawrence, Jelvis, Kelvin & Friend, Jason) were there... good company is always the most important factor to a good party!!! First time I clubbed with 8 jugs on a small little round table!!! I was so high and lost, so was Kenny, that I didn't recall alot of things...didn't recall alot of the photos taken...

We bumped into Chris Han (as always...seems fated to bump into him) and he treated kenny and I to lychee martini at wine bar...and plus a little shot of COWBOY recommended by Niki and Steven...after that...Kenny and I was ..really LOST LOST LOST & HIGH HIGH HIGH!!! Heard from Jyun that I was just laughing silly and talking silly...and...smiling all the way...but not drunk...just really super overwhelmingly HIGH. And Kenny was really just stoning and stoning and stoning..cos he said he low batt...Heard from Lawrence that he was really lost and puked a couple of times...lol...poor Lawrence...

After wine bar we head back to our table at zouk. I even went up to Joshua (the guy from the ping pong 9pm show on channel 8) and asked him if he was the ping pong show guy..and asked to take photo with him... and he was nice enuf to entertain me and kenny. LOL. cos he was kinda sharing table with us towards the end...around 3++am....so... daring and thick skin me went ahead to embarrass myself further.

Overall..it was a fantabulous night lah. Next one to come is Above & Beyond on 23rd May @ Zouk..hope it'll be a better one...

Sunday:
Mother's day...had simple lunch with my parents, cos we didn't wanna spend too much on those mother's day gimmick set meals...

Since Lush's and Bubu's birthday is on 12th May which falls on a Tuesday...so Kenny and I kinda did a little celebration at K-9 Culture after lunching with parents. Kenny's family and relatives were there too. We bought small little birthday cake for the dogs, and it's PURPLE in color...think it's blueberry flavour cos I ate a small little piece of it, and it tastes good!!! LOL. Dun worry it's all made of natural ingredients that's edible by human...
We ordered quite alot of finger food, such as chicken nuggest, friend onion rings, pizza, chicken wings...I would say they all taste good and pricing is really reasonable. Try the citrus strawberry smoothie..cheap and good. heehee. All humans and dogs had their fare share of good food and fun ...

Was so tired, I actually slept at 9pm ...crashed totally...KO!

Monday:
Another day of friends coming together, to reminisce the dancing days. Working up my old and stiff bones...gotta learn a dance routine for a dance performance for some event...group of 6...Rise, Marilyn and a 2 other dance mates from 8 years ago. Jyun and Mar was over at my place practicing the entire day today. It's been 6 years since I last perform a dance at Singapore Street Festival... I was like..err... 22 years old then! OMG!!! Good thing Jyun is fast with picking up the dance steps from the given video...so it's easier for us all to learn faster... We're paid quite good money for this job...otherwise we wouldn't do it either.

Quite a long input today..there's alot more actually...about the FREEDOM party and some unpleasant issues with a several people...haiz...I'll save it for another time...

Light Of Hope

2009-05-09T02:00:00.002+08:00

Just completed 20 episodes of Devil Beside You...

The ending is considered satisfactory...heehee...happy ending...that's right...

It really gives me a glimps and lightof hope that true love still exists...

I shall wait for the very momentous day...where that someone...the very one...the one and only...the right one...because I know...that day will come...

Yet Another Day

2009-05-07T00:35:00.014+08:00

I'm happy today... cos the weather is fine...it's a beautiful day...and I managed to do lots of stuffs...do a little bit of work...vacuumed and mopped the entire house...wash the common toilet...showered Lush...spring clean my entire Purple Lounge (my room)...and did a little extra stuffs to it (see pics below). And it's already 1am now but I still feel awake. Blogging in my cosy little PurpleLounge as I'm listening to Dj Yukun's Ambient /Chillout mix ETERNAL MEMORIES. A very fulfilling day indeed.

Wanted to go for a jog in the evening but really no time lah... My room already took up like 6 hours of spring cleaning and modifying...partly also cos I was taking my own sweet time...heehee

There's really nothing much I can do to my room as yet. Feel like darkening the purple walls cos it's now violet...instead of the usual purple I like...but my parents are totally against it...hurr hurr...:( There's just too many things in my room lah... ARGH!!! No matter how much I discard everytime I spring clean every 1-2 months...seems like still the same as...2 years back! WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY STUFFS???!!! How I wish one day I would just go MAD and throw away everything!!! HAHAHA...AS IF I WOULD!!!

Come... let you have a peek of Purple Lounge...

Before: After:

SPOT THE DIFFERENCE!!! HAHA

There are really 5 differences:

1) Curtains at side of bed

2) Flowers on wall

3) Black Pillow-cases and bolster cases

4) Position of Strawberry Bolster

5) LUSH

oops there's 6 actually..

6) Spotlight on wall switched on

More Pics of Modified Purple Lounge:
(Model: Lush Teo)

My little cosy work corner:

View from outside of room:

That's all for today... time to go tuck in my bed and indulge in 2 episodes of my taiwan drama before I sleep. Am watching Devil Beside You now.. so sweet and so romantic..If only SingaBOREan men are like that... or maybe I should set up a "SingaBOREan Men MUST Watch Taiwan Drama" club...lol

I'll be busy from tomorrow onwards...took on a new sideline... sales and marketing of pet products... my ex boss from the pet cafe (Pawtobello) approached me to help her. Best thing is I'm paid basic but need not report to office. OTOT (own time own target) as long as I hit the sales quota. So officially start work tmr... hope all goes well...

Such Is Life - Fun Fun and More Fun...

2009-05-05T00:26:00.005+08:00

Let's start with last Thursday...outing with V and J and my baby Lush to check out a few pet cafes, to celebrate Lush's and Bubu's birthday. V drove, so it was convenient to move around. We checked out Urban Pooch at Balestier Road and K-9 Culture and Turf City.Urban Pooch...was not up to my standard..maybe cos I used to work at Pawtobello...quite a reasonable variety of food for both dogs and humans,but pricing slightly on the higher side, which I feel it's a little too pricey for such non-airconditioned environment. On the other hand... I love K-9 Culture so much. Nice clean and price of food is reasonable. And US Doggy bakery is just next to the cafe...so you can get nice little treats and snacks for your doggy. Recommended.
I headed to Kenny's place with Lush for Mahjong Session with his new "SISTAs". I finally get to meet W and W's friend M and J. Nice and fun bunch of Sistas! Kenny says i'm a natural FAGHAG!!! LOL. Reached home at 4am...so late...

Then on Fri night. I joined Kenny at his work event at Cafe Del Mar (CDM), Superstar Summer. It was another eye-opener event. First time experiencing a really crowded CDM, flooded with topless, fit, hunky and good-looking AJs. DROOLING!!!! OMFG!!!WHY ARE THEY NOT STRAIGHT??? WHY AM I NOT GAY???!!! We had lots to drink and we all had fun...with Kenny and his colleagues and his friends...I AM JUST A NATURAL FAGHAG LAH!!!! Reached home at 5am...woke up the next day feeling like it was all a dream... lol..
Forgot to mention...I woke up the next day and found 4 lighters and 4 packs of condoms in my bag. LOL... they were distrubuting condom to promote whatever blah blah blah...and I think all of us were quite high and dunno what the hell we did..things ended up in my bag.. HOW COME I DIDN'T FIND EXTRA MONEY THEN? Like maybe 4 pieces of $50 note? or maybe 4 packs of Viceroy Ice??? haha oh well..now i have lots of condoms..heehee...

Sat...attended Roger's 10 years anniversary private party of being in showbiz...It was another eye-opener thing to me. First time see him sing and perform... and he invited a couple of drag queens and Abigail to perform as well...and all was recorded. Audience (which includes me and Jyun) had to go on stage for alittle shot that is to be included in the credits. It was a fun experience.
Ended the night with chilling session with my usual group (Jyun, BJ, Nana, Isaac) at Majestic Bar. I finally get to chill there and try their popular and always mentioned and spoken about chicken wings. I ordered passionate mango and lurve it...and was mocked by YK and working staffs there for sitting outside instead on indoors... enjoying the ever so hated heat...what to do...my peeps prefered outdoors...left at 1plus when we saw the sky kept on lighted up by lighting...non stop..it was scary at first... cos we've never seen such non-stop lightning and no sounds of thunder at all... reached home at 2am...hurr hurr...really drained and tired...and it started pouring and thundering heavily...the best moment to have a super duper power sleep!!!

SUNDAY IS SLEEP AND SLEEP AND SLEEP DAY!!!

TODAY...I have finally booked my final theory, and applied for cable tv...something that i've procrastinated for a couple of months!!!

Got to find out from one of my friend today... she was also involved with a married man and end up with nothing but hatred and hurt. Suppose to meet her today to exchange story but she couldn't make it at the very last minute. She's actually trying to take revenge to get back at the guy for the dreadful things he has done...I see no point in revenge by ruining his reputation or in any obvious manners that may hurt both parties even further... will definitely talk her out of revenge... cos I'm sure there's better way to do so...her verdict " Married men with itchy LJ and sweet mouth sucks big time"....and I totally agree with her...as of now...

Move On - from a friend Barry Tan

2009-04-30T11:03:00.002+08:00

*********************************************
See beyond immediate circumstances. Clear the decks of any old grievances. Learn from the past and move on by tapping into your inner resources of self-worth and humility. With honesty and commitment, softly let go and let others change. There are new horizons, new growth and a new lease of life.
*********************************************

Our beliefs are created out of our past experiences; the situations that we get ourselves into and the people that have crossed our paths. These beliefs shape our thoughts and our reactions now, in the present. And through this process, we create the reality we want to see, which further reinforce these beliefs that become the facts we strongly attached ourselves to.

Are we missing out on something here?
Have we actually become the very victims of our own reality and thus, our past?

See beyond immediate circumstances and challenge our beliefs.

Learn the lessons from the past and move on by tapping into your inner resources of self-worth and humility. When you clear these decks of old grievances, you are emptying vessels and more importantly, renewing your heart.

Change is eminent. With honesty and commitment, softly let go and allow others to change. When you move on, others around you move on too.

What better way to face the bigger reality of life and its tribulations than like one who sees new horizons, new growth and new opportunities all the time.

Unforgivable

2009-04-29T11:29:00.002+08:00

What's unforgivable? The behaviour of some men... I mentioned SOME MEN, not ALL MEN ok.

V went on a date last night, with the young chap, Lwho picked us up at Mambo last wed. L was the one who dated her out, supposedly for dinner, and drinks at Boat Quay. But he arrived, underdressed (tshirt, berms and slippers) even later than V did, and better still, already had dinner, without informing V earlier. V had to starve till L arrive to have dinner, and to find out that he already had, and it was already 10pm. Fuming already. Nvm. V had to pay for the dinner, and his can of drink. V is still fine with this, cos she was the one eating. But L should at least have the decency to open up and pour out V's can of drink. He was simply indulging his drink in his own world. LOL.
They proceeded to Chillz for drinks and singing. They ordered a jug of beer, L drank like as though he is damn thirsty. V only drank 1 glass. When the bill came to him, he looked at the bill and looked at V and kept quiet, so V had to foot the bill with her credit card instead. And he didn't even say THANK YOU!!!
WTF. Xiao Bai Lian is so written all over his face. And instead of walking V to where she has to wait for her transport, he subconsiously led her to walk him to the MRT station instead. How nice... how gentlemen...how suave...
He was quite a gentleman and was quite suave when we met him at Zouk. Never would we expect him to be such a...Disgustingly Disastrous Guy (DDG, a new term by V).

Just So Unforgivable...

A has totally stopped contacting me. His dad is still calling me and msging me asking me how am I and why haven't been visiting him. Told him i was busy. I was actually mad with A, for what he has done to me. He knew I was hurt and... used... but yet all he can do to me is just totally not contact me. Is he doing this on purpose or is he really busy with getting over his shitty emo situation? I hate him so much...

cause leaving me the way you did was just so... Unforgivable...

But then again...at least I've woken up from this lesson...and no longer am foolishly letting him make use of me... will never believe his sweet nothings and hopeful words ever!

Your sweet nothings are deceiving...
But I won't Be made a fool...
Cause leaving me the way you did was just so... Unforgivable...

Another Tiring Weekend

2009-04-27T01:30:00.002+08:00

This weekend wasn't busy or hectic. There wasn't any clubbing or partying involved. But was tiring cos of the blardy damn hot weather. But today's weather was really nice...it finally rained...with cold winds.

Due to some unforseen circumstances...the outdoor outing to Cafe Del Mar on Sat was cancelled. Alot of people last minute backed out... but then again the weather was scorching hot lah. I would have got darker and get myself more roasted if we still went ahead with the plan.

Went to a friend's wedding reception earlier today. It was held at Polo Club along upper thomson road. We used to hang out together during our primary school days, when we were 9 or 10 years old. A few others who hanged out together with us during those days were also at the reception. Haven met them for almost 15 years I suppose.
Amongst us, Vega is the only one who tied the knot, at the age of 28. Been with her bf since their Uni days, so it's almost equals to being together for about 8 years. The rest of us, including me, age ranging 26-28... are all single...hhmmm and I wonder why... haha.. Realised that alot rather stay single and enjoy singlehood and freedom, and not torture themselves with burden and responsibilities which might not reap them benefits but more disadvantages.

But sadly... many men has abused their authority... and the trust and friendship.... cos many men...never think with the right head! They think with the head down there and not the one up there!!! How practical and real right???!!!

Reminiscing the Poly Clubbing Days

2009-04-23T20:50:00.003+08:00

During Poly days, together with V (who found me on Fb recently after losing contact for 7 years), we would go clubbing on any day. Even the night before exam, we would lose control and sneak out of my house (burning midnight oil at my place) and head to mhd sultan. Then it was Madam wong, The Page and Next Page and Samsara that we frequent. We would party like crazy and make sure we go home happy.

Yeah, just the 2 of us. A girls night out last night (ladies night), after so many years. But this time round... we had to choose places where either we will feel comfortable with (knowing the music and crowd), or places where there are lesser Young Girls. LOL last time we have to worry about age limit...now we're worrying about... over age limit? LOL

We've not been out in the partying scene for too long so not too sure bout the music they play at the clubs. So after slupring our free drinks at Zirca, we finally ended up at Mambo cos we're sure about the songs they play. And also ended up getting picked up by 22 year old boi bois... all thanks to V, for being seh aka looking bored. LOL. These 2 young bois are so eager and so enthusiastic! They know we're older than them but chose not to guess our age. haha. So younger bois liking older gals is still a trend. LOL.

I've already changed my image by changing my hairstyle so that i'll look my age or close to my age, and hopefully get picked up by the right guys...But why am I still getting picked up by much younger bois??!!! ARGH!!! And they thought I'm 25...how nice... but scary time flies so quickly I'm nearing 30 alrdy. DAMN!!!

Will slowly monitor what these young chaps want from older plus sized girls. haha. I think I can start writing a book titled "What Men Really Are and What They Want." I'm am gathering more information and would like to conduct interviews too. wahahah. We shall see...

Calmly Observe - (Shared by my friend Barry Tan)

2009-04-22T20:14:00.001+08:00

If you calmly observe, you will more clearly see situations for what they really are.

*****************************************************************

How many times when we have allowed our past experiences and paradigms to demarkate and judge our present moments?

To do this is to almost experience life in a well. Like that folk tale of a frog that lives in a well, only knowing that the sky is as big as the mouth of the well. Could you imagine the number of opportunities that you could have not seen or could have missed out, because of a paradigmed and conditioned mindset?

Free your mind. Free your mind and allow a non-judgemental awareness to take over. To calmly observe is to observe in the mind of a new-born baby, To see and judge every predictament or situation with an unbiased point-of-view. In this way, you will allow yourself to see situations for what they really are.

Do know that there's always two sides to a coin; and a flipside to every situation, problem or occurence? A Yin-Yang example of opposites and underlying meanings. Could there have been a lesson that you could have rejoiced about?

Emo Tuesday... so much things going on in my mind!!!

2009-04-22T00:15:00.004+08:00

As if things are not bad enough.
As of it is...things has already gotten to such a drastic and embarrassing situtation... to the point of...no return I suppose? I dunno..let's just see how things goes with his side. But bottom line...I know I shouldn't believe him anymore...or even put in any effort to impress anymore. Just sit back and FUCK CARE!!!

And as for C's side... he might just want a rollercoaster ride instead of a romantic ride on the ferris wheel. How sad right, and he's such a good catch! We got along so well and felt so comfortable with each other. But he only believe in THE RIGHT ONE...so I guess... it's too early to tell if I'm his RIGHT ONE...or simply just not. But then again I also need to find out if he is My Right One. Cos I also believe in finding THE RIGHT ONE...

Is there no more decent guy out there? Is there no such thing as a decent date anymore??!!! Or am I just simply meeting all the wrong men??!! Why do I always end up getting myself into shitty situations???!!!

I just want a decent date... a decent romantic date. Like a dinner and movie date. A stroll at ECP or just cruising in his car around SingaBore listening to Class 95 or Lush 99.5. Just pureply decent and no SEX mentioned!!! Is it that hard??!!! Is sex really so important or the only thing men think about???!!! Of cos with someone reasonable, dun throw me a geek or someone I have totally no interest in. I'd rather stay home and cry over my taiwan drama.

Feeling really down and emo lately... the fact that I've been always learning and listening about how difficult it is to find true love... and many real and disgusting facts about some men ( I meant some...cos I know there are still good men around but limited edition). All these information are good in a way... but it's just really draining me to know about such sad facts... facts that I have to absorb and eventually accept them.

I'm feeling horrible... I need to quickly do something to pick up the pieces!!!
I think I should clean up my room tmr to make me feel better... and go out on a girl's nite out on a wed night. I hate this feeling!!! ARGH!!!

Taiwan / Korean / Japanese Drama Vs Life In Reality

2009-04-20T14:30:00.002+08:00

Now I finally came to realise and understand why people loves watching all these drama series.

I've been lately indulging in some Taiwan drama series. Can't find true love in real life right? So no choice but to indulge in drama series. And also somehow still keeps me believing that True Love does exist. Oh well... I almost thought there's very slight possibilities of finding true love.

Surrounded by too many divorce cases and 2nd marriage cases. Surrounded by men who are womanizers esp at the prime age of 30-40.
I'll talk more about this topic later...not now...

I just wanna say... I can only find love and comfort by watching taiwan drama now.
How sad right... hahaha

It's Been Really Long...

2009-04-20T12:24:00.001+08:00

It's really been really long (1 and 1/2 year) since I last updated this peaceful serenity...

Too much things been going on, so much to the point of changing a few perceptions and principles of life, which also caused a little character change. There's so much going on in my mind...so much that it's overflowing...so guess it's time to list them down before I go crazy!!!

Time really flies, just a blink of the eye and it's now coming to an end of April 2009. One third of the year flew past just like that.

Am I still the same old me? I questioned myself numerous times.
Part of me still exists, but part of me evanesced too....

I managed to catch up with many old friends lately....over the past 1 and 1/2 year of missing in action. Friends from 12 years ago... IJ mates... CYF mates... ex bfs...Poly mates....
And also got to know many new friends...and made good friends too...

Along this combination of negative n positive, yet bizarre journey, I've picked up so much that has opened up and broadened my mindset and perspection of life, friends, especially Men. Not that I'm trying to pick on men...but I realised that lately, I have found out and learnt so much... so much that it scares me... so much that I'm starting to fear marriage or even getting into a commited relationship... so much that... I'm seeing almost the same characteristics in many men! My eyes has finally opened up!!! And I'm sure there's much more to be discovered!!! OM MY!!! I hope I can handle all these. I am going to discover, which part of me, my heart or my mindset, or just simply me myself and I, that is helping me hang in there and keep being strong and overcome whatever WEIRD WEIRD OBSTACLES I have been encountering!!!

DAMN LIFE!!!! IT'S SO DIFFICULT ON ME!!!! WHY SO???!!!! But yet I'm enjoying and appreciating every single moment! I'm indulging in both the happiness and sadness!
I've learnt to soak in the sun, absorbing all the sunshine and exhuberant energy of the sun!
I've learnt to enjoy outdoor activities and appreciating the natural mother nature surrounding me.
I've learnt to spend wisely...well of cos based on the situation I've been in for the past 3 years never allowed me to splurge...so I guess it's good thing.
I've learnt to become a Xiao Nu Ren (not as Da Nu Ren as before) and more submissive now. And even learnt to be very patient and caring towards the elders.
I'm forseeing that I'm in for more weird happenings and obstacles... am I really just suay??? or this is just life???!!!

This is just the beginning of my nagging and bragging of how sucky my life is....more to come....

ZoukOut 2007 (8 Dec, From 8pm to 8am, @ Siloso Sentosa)

2007-12-16T18:54:00.000+08:00

Fantastic night. REALLY worth the wait. Armin's set was at 5am but i guess everyone else felt the same too! It was worth the blardy wait!!! i Stayed all the way till 7.30am.

Went with Kenny Lim (Si Hum), Darren, Darren's GF Fiona and Fiona's friend, forgot the name. haha. My colleagues and boss was there too. And met up with Leonard, Sufyan and Reyaz there just before we left. :) We walked out together. Leonard gave me a lift home.

Here are some pics taken. I took more pics of the lazer lights than of people! HAha. I even took lots of videos of the lazer lights effects. Really fantastic and yet another unforgettable night. Check out the pics.

Half Fairy Half Devil

2007-12-16T18:45:00.000+08:00

Sorry this was updated so late. Been really really busy.

This is my revised tattoo.

Now she's wearing clothes and has extended wings.
Can no longer see her six packs and mascular legs anymore.

But her eyes are still the same. She still has no eyeballs.
No Eyeballs = No Life = Not Human = Immortal.

SHE'S AN IMMORTAL! (Some more my fav song My Immortal by Evanescence)

I'm still not very pleased with it cos it looks totally un-matched with my very first and ever so beautiful purple fallen angel. Think i'll still have to think about what I can do to this Half Fairy Half Devil thingy.

I have to save up lots of money to cover up i guess.

Before:

After

Inflicting Pain Again!

2007-11-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

Have been craving to do this for so long already..now its the time..tomorrow is the day...:D
All i have to do is to cover the current back devil. Cos i really feel negative about it..dunno why..
So I dunno what is the artist gonna cover it with..will definitely take pictures and post. :D
Gotta go sleep and get enough rest for tomorrow's PAINFUL YET SHIOK MOMENT!

It's been a while

2007-11-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

It's really been a while since I last popped in here and update.
I'm doing events now...summer holiday job at the pet cafe is over.
Now it's back to serious career involvement.
Been so busy with work...burried with work...no time to really chill, rest and relax.
Quite deprived of fun and laughter peace and joy leh..how ah? Haha
Really hope to catch up with my friends soon.

Upcoming events to look forward to:
- Thurs 8 Nov = Public holiday plus Paw Wow with 938 Live
- Sat 8 Dec = ZOUKOUT!

That's all for now..otherwise life is just all about work..trying to pick up the small little broken pieces of life and balancing life. All I can ever do now is just chill with Lush 99.5 in PurpleLounge.

Meanwhile...chill..

My New Job

2007-06-15T10:15:00.000+08:00

Hey hey...as mentioned...I'm working in a Pet Restaurant now.
It's really a nice pet boutique and pet friendly restaurant for pet lovers, pet owners and their doggies to gather and chill here. Though the setting is a little high class...italian style.. but overall it feels like home. And we serve a huge variety of human food, and really special dog food and drinks too!

Sometimes I bring along my baby Lush with me to work too!
So dog owners, when you're free and would like to go somewhere
where you can bring your doggy along with you, do drop by at Pawtobello.
It's time to pamper yourself, and your doggy!
And we also have a huge varieties of pet products for you to pamper your pets with.
Really nice clothes, collars, leashes and many other stuffs. I already bought a few stuffs for my baby. :D

Pawtobello is located at 33 Mhd Sultan Road #01-04.
Next to Yoyogo Japanese Restaurant.
Directly Opposite Double O.
For reservations or enquiries you can call me or 68874806.
We are open daily from 9am to 10pm.

Hope to see you and your doggy there soon yah :D
CheeRs :D

Nothing Much To Talk About

2007-06-03T10:53:00.000+08:00

There's nothing much to update about my life now. Boring and pathetic as usual.
Other than me being jobless and still trying to find a job suitable for me.
Meanwhile, I just got myself a part time job at a Pet Restaurant. Need to take a break doing a no-brainer job for a while lah. Haha. so i can focus and get busy doing my Visual Comm course final project.

My baby Lush's period lasted for 10 days. all of a sudden she seem to have put on a little weight right after her period. Haha she runs around clumsily now. Like what people would usually say, the dog usually has the characteristics of it's owner. dunno how true.

Anyways, i've also been busy watching Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency before i sleep everynight.
Watching season 2 on my pc at the moment. I find that it's more interesting than Next American Top Model leh! I just love how Janice Dickinson (JD) carry herself. I love her overly confident mean or nice whenever necessary attitude. Just love her guts, and her evil mouth. HAHA.
She reminds me of Cruela Deville (dunno spell right or not) from 101 Dalmations, but of cos JD the more humane version. Not so cruel.

Take a look at the pic below. thinking of covering my back "evilish-six-packed" looking fairy with one of the pics below. Not sure if it's possible. Suggestions and comments anyone?

My Big Baby Lush

2007-05-13T17:04:00.000+08:00

Now that Lush has her period, it'll last for about 1 week or so, I'm giving her more attention than I usually would. She is behaving weirdly, grumpy and tired and always sleeping. That's what we call the PMS and yes dogs do go through that too. And when we girls have it, we have cramps, and Lush has cramps to so i heard from others, sad thing is i dunno when she's in pain.

Now i have to change her "pampers" for her, and remove as and when for her so she can pee and poo.
I start to love her more now. Now she's more like a baby to me. hahha. than a fertile doggy. Haha.
She's just so cute and adorable. can't bear to leave sight of her. She's so cute wearing her "Strawberry" undies walking around like baby wearing pampers. So cute. haha.

Will post pictures soon. :D Just wanna share how I feel about her. Its a really new and wonderful experience. :D alot for me to learn .

My Precious LUSH 1st Birthday!

2007-05-13T13:47:00.000+08:00

ttMy precious baby turned 1 yesterday, 12 May!
Coincidently, her birthday was her first day of her period too!
I was trying on clothes that i bought for her from BKK quite some time ago.
Wanted to dress her up nice nice for her BD party, then i turned her around and saw
blood! I was so happy and touched until I teared leh.
Was telling to myself..." finally, my baby has grown up". I was so looking forward to this day.

It was also Lush's twin brother Bubu's BD, we threw a BD party at Worlds Apart at Kovan.
It's a nice place, though a big small but the food is nice (human food).
We took alot of photos, but i haven't got the photos yet. Can't wait to load them and show you all.

I bought her lots of presents:
- a red t-shirt that says SAFE SEX cos now she has to practice safe sex since she's fertile now. Haha
- Brazil jersey
- Red dog bag
- and LOTS OF TREATS!!!

hahah. all in all spent up to about $130 on her yesterday. But it's all worth it.
Considering she has always been beside me when I sad, and she'll see me cry and sleep with me.
Pet lovers, Worlds apart is really a nice place to chill with your friends and pets. Food is nice and cheap. But they are closing the KOVAN branch in 2 months time, moving to a bigger area at pasir ris. So Kovan area people do quickly check that place out. There are lots of cute doggies to check out there too!
My personal favourite, the mini maltese.
Will update photos soon. CheeRs!

Extremely Extreme Tattoos

2007-05-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

Extreme right? Very gian to do it, but of cos not to this extend.

Should be putting the next one soon, planning now.

And planning to cover up my weird looking "Six packed mascular legs" fairy first.

Can't wait to feel the "PAIN" again!! HAHA

Darren let's go together. Bring ur gf along so she can see the look in your face when the needle goes onto you! :P

My homework

2007-04-05T03:29:00.000+08:00

This is the poster I designed at my Visual Comm class, using Adobe Illustrator.
Hee hee.
But it's not a real party ok. Just made it up.

Nice right? Of cos I will say nice lah cos I designed it mah! Haha
Drop me an email at thepurpleshoppe@yahoo.com.sg if you got freelance design job for me yah :D Hee hee

FreeLance Graphic Designer

2007-02-23T10:44:00.000+08:00

I'm not a very good one, but still exploring and learning at the same time.
But do drop me a mail if you need help to do design or do up simple posters, EDMs or event flyers. I charge cheap cheap... :P
Please see below my past works and designs.

Event Flyer for Progressions: Trance Parade
Promo Poster for roadshow at NUS
EDM Invite Halloween Preview screening for Members
EDM Invite Valentine's Day Screening for members
Seventeen Mag ad: Membership Sign up promo
Event flyer for Progressions: NYE 2007
Event Flyer for Progressions: The Halloween Masquerade
Event Flyer for Progressions: Pleasure Island
DJ Workshop Sign Up Poster
Anniversary Party signages and poster boards
Generic Mall Promo Poster

Contact me at thepurpleshoppe@yahoo.com.sg if interested.
Thanks for support :D

My Dream Come True

2007-01-11T10:22:00.000+08:00

Finally, I started on my Visual Communication course. It's a 4 months course, and at the end of it, I'll only get a certificate.
But it's ok. I just need the basics of Graphic Design and Illustration. I have the passion but I don't have the basics! So hopefully after this, I'll be able to do better designs and posters.
Every tues and fri is a long day for me, after work then class from 7-10pm.
But luckily it's only for 4 months. :D Can't wait to design more stuffs!!! :p

My blog seems to be getting boring..dunno what to update...and no time to update.
I just come in here for the music. I can only work to this music.

Darren my buddy so busy... when's the next big gig?
Pt and Yk...so quiet lately. Are you both not in town?
So stress and bored at work.
To that someone out there...all the best to your new journey of life.

Post NYE and 2007 New Year Resolution...

2007-01-03T12:32:00.000+08:00

My party at Cineleisure was overall a success.. i'm glad it's finally over. 3 months of planning and stress. Quite a few hiccups on the final 2-3 days towards the party, but luckily all is solvable. At the party itself, Cineleisure practically became Little India #2!!! The external landscape was swamped with Bangalahdeshs! OMG!!!
It's already so dark, it's even darker with them everywhere! HAHA! BUt it's a happy problem lah. But some of them very poorthing, many ah-bengs were making fun of them and spraying at them. But the bangalahs seems to be very happy to get sprayed at! HAha. they felt popular in a way. weird huh...

2007 New Year Resolution...

not sure how much can be done, but must at least accomplish 3!

- Save Money! ( I have ZERO savings!!!)
- Get my driving license! ( I've dragged this for almost 4 years already!)
- LOSE WEIGHT! ( I've put on weight again!)
- Get a freelance graphic design job (I'm going to start my visual comm course at Nafa next week! So please anyone...give me jobs yah :D)
- A holiday trip to Taipei / Shanghai! (I'm sick of bangkok leh!)
- Read at least 5 good books! ( I hate reading, but I still need to brush up my english)
- Spend more time with my parents! ( I'm starting to miss them and think of them more often)
- Revamp my room! (it'll still be purple :D)
- Visit The Cannery, BBBC more often. (Need a nice place to chill and feel belonged to)
- Make sure 2007 NYE Party @ Cineleisure has lesser or no bangalahdeshs? HAHA (Provided i'm still where I am)

That's all i can think of now... think it's quite alot to accomplish too. But will try my best cos some are actually quite do-able.

NYE Parties!

2006-12-28T08:51:00.000+08:00

List of places to go:

First of all: NYE URBAN RELOAD @ CINELEISURE
(Put together by my team and I)

Secondly: PROGRESSIONS NYE 2007

Others:
Sentosa
National Museum
VivoCity
Expo - Mambo Jambo

So Many Places To Go!

2006-12-20T14:06:00.000+08:00

With so many night spots opened lately, The Cannery (Clinic, Barfly, Kandi, Buddha Bar....), St James Powerhouse...re-opened Madam Wong...now really no excuse as "No where to go leh". It's more like, "where should i go? got so many to choose from!"

Let's see where will my new fav spot me...I haven't tried any of the new places yet.

Another new nice place to chill and hangout, if you're a gamer, E2Max @ The Cathay buidling! It's at level 4.
This time round, no private chamber rooms, but really nice clubby ambience.
Wine is sold there, of cos age limit applies.
Do check out this place if you're around the corner.

results and ZoukOut

2006-12-11T09:15:00.000+08:00

Results turns out, yes..i was worrying too much..and too complicated to tell in details.

Anyways, good enough, I made it to ZoukOut.
Was so looking forward to it just had to force myself to rest alot on sat before
I head out.
At first, it was still quite fun, but I must say this year was not as good as last
year. Ferry Corsten's set seems very Blunt. no taste. Not high at all.
And dunno why, I couldn't seem drink much this time round, that's why didn't manage
to get high enough to get into the feel and groove of ZoukOut.
And I didn't wanna get drunk or puke, so I controlled my inputs.
And my group and I left at 5am...and smoothly and surely made our way to breakfast, then head back home for a blardy good sleep.

Anyways, back to monday blues again. What's there to look forward to next?

unhappiness...unecessary...

2006-12-07T18:00:00.000+08:00

I'm going thru so much unecessary sufferings now...my life and career seems to be jeopardised and going down the drain... my health now is also at stake.
I feel so tired, everyday, even though I sleep early, and have at least 8 hours of sleep each day.
I feel so week and my whole body ache. I feel depressed. I get easily agitated.
And i'm unknowingly putting on weight. All these are symptoms of some stupid sickness!!!
I HATE MYSELF NOW!!!!
Doc says i might either have chronic fatigue syndrome, or thyroid.
My blood test is not out yet. tomorrow the results will tell..

Is it just my mind making me suffer or is it really my health?

And zouk out is just 2 days away. what am i going to do? :(

Cineleisure's FANTASTIC Promotions!!!

2006-12-01T09:48:00.000+08:00
Hey guys, check this out and support yah! :D

A New Addition!

2006-11-23T12:06:00.000+08:00

Just got this done on monday.
Power Pain! BUT SHIOK! :P

A Party not to be missed!

2006-11-14T09:39:00.000+08:00

Hi hi friends...
this party is only for E2max card members, but i would like to
extend a few invite out to my friends.
A party with free movies, free e-gaming, free food and drinks!
Please see below visual, and sms me asap if you would like to
come for this party.
Come and support this party put together by my team and I. :D

Up and Coming!

2006-11-07T10:10:00.000+08:00

25th of Nov Armin van Burren @ Zouk
2nd of Dec Marco V @ Zouk
9th of Dec - ZOUKOUT! ZOUKOUT!

Armin and Zoukout...DIE DIE MUST GO!!!! :P

A couple of pics from Halloween Masquerade.
The SATAN returns... :p hahahaha

Progressions: The Halloween Masquerade

2006-10-17T16:09:00.000+08:00

Cafe Del Mar Singapore

2006-10-16T09:35:00.000+08:00

Hey hey !!! I'm so excited bout this! Singapore's very own Cafe Del Mar!
Check out the website, and register yourself on their mailing list
and stand a chance to win exclusive membership privileges and a MOTOKRZR!

http://www.cafedelmar.com.sg/main/

Another new venue to chill and be seen at. wahahaha

I'm Back from BKK!!!

2006-10-12T17:04:00.000+08:00

Back back back!!!
First time i went BKK and didn't enjoy to the max,
and couldn't wait to come back to Singapore! Can't believe it!
This trip, i ate quite little, not like last time i would eat 5 - 6 times a day.
This time.. this trip.. overall.. was quite stressful... :(
We stayed in a guesthouse along Khao Sarn Road, called Sawasdee Bangkok Inn.
Cheap and good. Cosy. with Purple walls. haha.
All in all each of us had to only spend SGD$55 for 5 nights of hotel stay!
But all 4 of us had to squeeze in a double room lah. well. what to do.

So much to tell about the trip but not very nice to tell here. haha.
One kept on losing her way... one kept on buying things without really knowing
the price and always asking us to choose for her...one didn't buy much..and one (me) in the middle of all 3 of them. This is just the appetizer...haha.
Maybe I'm quite sick of Bkk already. not even excited bout the food there.

Well.. me got meself a new "tattoo"..to bring out the LIAN in me. wahahaha!!!
.. Check out the pic! Hee hee!
Will post more pics when uploaded.

ONE MORE DAY !!!

2006-10-04T18:00:00.000+08:00

1 more day to go to my BKK extravaganza! WOOHOO!!!

Anyways.. I watched this movie called IMAGINE YOU AND ME last nite.
I must say... LESBIAN POWER!!!!!!!
It's about this couple, who just got married after many years being together.
They love each other so much, they're best friends, best lovemates and best everything practically.
Then at their wedding, the lady who did the flower decorations of the wedding, went
up to the Bride and greeted her. Think it was love at first sight for both of them!
At the end of the movie..she left her husband, for the flower girl.
SEE!!! LESBIAN POWER!! WOOHOO!!! :p

Counting down - 2 MORE DAYS

2006-10-03T09:08:00.000+08:00

Counting down... 2 more days to go and off I fly to BKK!!!
Thurs 10++ flight... it'll be a damn BITCHY trip..
Attendance: Joanne, Alicia, Diana and I!
How bitchier can things get man? Can't imagine!
Alamak..Just can't wait to LEAVE WORK HERE AND HAVE LOTSA FUN!!!
Shop..eat..massage...waxing...drinks...clubbing...happying man!!!
Can't wait can't wait!
Meanwhile, most importantly...do a proper handover..if not sure kenna
F***ed! :p And lets daydream at the same time too. wahahaha

What a boring day

2006-09-28T16:20:00.000+08:00

Today time passing by too slowly...dunno why... unlike yesterday...not enough time to do work.
Now i'm desperately searching for things to do...

Let's talk about my baby Lush.
I seem to be loving her more and more. She sleeps with me on my bed every night.
She's so super hyper active and just loves attention!
She's getting fatter and cuter!
She's just so lovable and adorable..can't wait to go home and see her...

And so the Results

2006-09-26T09:32:00.000+08:00

Think all should know by now... HADY MIRZA was crowned Singapore Idol 2006 last night. Tears of sadness and disappointment rolled down my cheeks lah. aiyoh.
Think Singapore Idol should be called MELAYU IDOL instead lah! NO OFFENCE!
Yes I do agree Hady can sing, Jon too! But oh well... what to do..the kampung spirit
was very strong... the cheers and screems from Hady's fans was double of Jon's fans.

Nevertheless... I'll still support Jon. As what Ken said, he'll easily make it for a regional artiste. Dunno is it good or bad huh...

Let's just see where will Hady go... Taufik went to 7-11... maybe Hady will go JJ drinks.

Progressions presents Pleasure Island

2006-09-25T10:08:00.000+08:00

Click HERE to view the blog.

Singapore Idol Performance Show

2006-09-25T09:15:00.000+08:00

Was there last nite..though i'm not a really hardcore fan but just there to support..since I got the tickets and since I've seen them for quite a few autograph sessions at Cineleisure... so just go support.

Whenever I see HIM on stage... I would think of "him"...
Whenever HE sings... I would imagine "him" singing...
Whenever HE sings... his sincerity and emotions would touch my heart...
Whenever HE sings... my heart would ache...and I would tear...

Tonight is the results show... I do hope HE will be crowned the Singapore Idol.

Trancing Trancing

2006-09-24T04:58:00.000+08:00

I just got back from Gabriel and Dresden at Zouk. It's been such a long time.
I used to hate trance so much... but now I know how to appreciate it and love it.
Whenever I'm at a trance event, I would enjoy it so much..I would enjoy it double...for myself..and for someone who was very important... i would enjoy it on behalf of him too.. cos he's not there...

Trance..it's just something someone must learn to appreciate.

Jokes at Work

2006-09-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

Here's a couple of jokes cracked during lunch time at work.

1) There was once we were walking back to office after our lunch, walking along Mhd Sultan road.
The wind was strong, even I lost a bit of balance while walking. Among us we have a female colleauge who is really skinny. She weighs about 42 kg. Let's refer her as Jen. So we were joking about the wind being really strong, and it'll porbably blow her away...then she'll get stuck or cling on to one of the trees screaming " help me help me, get me down". We visualised it and laughed out really loud. But, she wasn't there with us.

We told her about the joke the next day at lunch, she was so funny and she added on saying " good lah next time I can use this as an excuse when I'm late for work, the wind too strong I can't walk. " Hahaha

2) We were talking about nice food and where to find them and all, then one of us, let's refer her as Jan, wanted to say TOA PAYOH...slip of tongue and say too fast, said "TOH POH YOH" instead! Situation was so funny and we laughed until our faces all turned red.

I just love lunch moments. really helps to destress. :D

Singapore Idol Live Screening Tickets

2006-09-21T16:20:00.000+08:00
It's the FINAL SHOWDOWN!
Counting down, 3 days to go!
For fanatics...here's 2 ways you can watch Singapore Idol LIVE,
other than watching on TV 5.

Indoor Stadium:
I have 1 pair of tickets, for both the performance and results show.
Selling at $50 per ticket. Good seats. PM Me if interested.

Live on Big Screen:
You can also catch both the performance and results show live at
Cathay Cineplex Orchard, in the cinemas itself!
Just pay $15 ($10 for E2Max card members) and you'll get free flow of
popcorn and drinks, and a FREE ADMISSION PASS to catch the live screening!
Purchase your special Idol combo now at Cineleisure Level 9 counter!

Progressions on 9th Sept @ BBBC

2006-09-08T17:06:00.000+08:00

TOPSHOP BAZAAR SALE!!!

2006-09-05T12:18:00.000+08:00

Retail Therapy

2006-08-31T09:41:00.000+08:00

I went shopping at Suntec & Marina with Pearly yest night after work.
RETAIL THERAPY IS ALWAYS THE BEST!!!!
Went to TopShop to look for Alicia, it was the last day of the 70% sales.
Then went to Ebase at Marina..I think the whole shop is on sale!
Pants from $15 - $20, dresses from $15 - $25, tops from $10 onwards!
Sale like hell lah!!!
In total, I spent $132 for 7 pieces of clothes!
I got 3 tops from Topshop, 3 dresses and 1 pants from Ebase. Power lah!
In average one piece only about $18!
YEEHAA!

Clearing Up the Mess

2006-08-29T11:56:00.000+08:00

Think I had enough time to be messy and be in trouble..time to wake up.
Get rid of the unecessary stuffs, and bring back the important stuffs.
You know there are times when you suddenly will just wake up and clear up the mess you're in. Well... i really dun wanna lose my friends or anything else that is really important to me.. so i guess it's time i get my acts right.
I must try to balance...balance in order to have a healthy and happy lifestyle.
I must... I must...

Song of The Day (Goodbye My Lover)

2006-08-28T09:20:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE MY LOVER - James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Today's Words Of Wisdom

2006-08-22T09:22:00.000+08:00
"For everything you have missed, you have gained something else; and for everything you gain, you lose something." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

For everything that i've missed out for the past 3 years, my family, the fun, my friends, neglected those who wanted to be there for me and those who care for me, I started a journey of independence to search and bring them back, when I lose something so very important.
During this journey...I've earned alot of those that I've missed out...but at the same time...losing them slowly...as other new stuffs are being earned.

I do not wish to lose the care and concern, and the respect from my friends, just for one thing that I have earned during this journey in search of independence.
I do not want to lose my friends for any reason at all. I seek your understanding friends. Please talk to me...

Life Is Going To Get Better @ The Cathay

2006-08-22T09:11:00.000+08:00

Singapore Idol LOSER!

2006-08-11T09:10:00.000+08:00
WooHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! RAHIMAH RAHIM IS OUT!!!!
No offence to anyone yeah...but I seriously can't stand her!
Her face, her actions, trying to act rock and act cute at the same time..
the way she sings... her everything!!! BLAH!!!!
Such a fake poser loser rocker!!!!!!!

Next one I hope out..but I know quite impossible lah... the LUP CHEONG TWOHILL!!!
Hahaha.

Jonathan's the best lah :p

Photo taken at Autograph session of Top 8, at Cineleisure last sat 5th Aug.

TranceParade post coverage

2006-08-10T12:12:00.000+08:00

TRANCE PARADE was blardy FANTASTIC! but super packed. First time I see BBBC so packed!! Woohoo!!! P@T popular ah!!! And he loves to do the Singapore Work out at the console!! Good Job! NExt time all do together! Please initiate the moves ok! I'll sure join in! :p
I didn't take any photos this time. But someone (malay botak guy with eyebrow stud, and calls me Purple) came up to me and took a photo of me and my friends!!! Can that someone please PM me or post me a message please. Cos i dunno who are u!! :D Thanks dude.
By the way... BBBC...my prefered and recommended venue to chill and be seen at :P

That's all for now lah. Nothing much to talk bout NDP yest. Ciaos for now.

Introducing.... LUSH!!!!!

2006-08-03T17:32:00.000+08:00

Introducing a new family member.. and a new love of my life...my baby... LUSH!
I just brought her home on sunday, 30th July. A birthday present I bought for myself. :D

Song of The Day ( Where'd You Go)

2006-08-03T17:20:00.000+08:00
Where'd You Go by Fort Minor
(Chorus:)
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
(Intro:)
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
(Verse 1:)
She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit
and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
Because your voice always helps to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say,
so I want you to know it's a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
(Chorus)
(Verse 1:)
You know, the place where you used to live
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while, Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine, I plan to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
(Chorus)
(Verse 3:)
I want you to know it's a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debating
Tired of sitting and hating and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless
It seems one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please come back home[x5]

Thanks All

2006-07-29T15:40:00.000+08:00
Was quite fun at MOS last night, drinking free flow at the new member's area.
Those who came were Lyn, Jeremy and his friand Liangwu, and Liangwu's friend, Andrew, Alicia and 2 of his girl friends, Felicia, Sabrina and Kelly. Thanks all for coming. :D
Well...since drinks were free and not limited to housepours only, we drank all sorts. Had alot of fun drinking and taking photos and hunting for elligible bachelors. HAha.
Supposed to go to BBBC but end up didn't cos the whole group wants R&B!!!
So sorry I couldn't make it to BBBC...sorry...next time k.

Anyways, received quite a few gifts and 2 of which I love very much. Now I got what i've always wanted. PURE PURPLE by Hugo Boss and Dolly Love by Anna Sui..2 bottles of fragrance :D SO HAPPY!! :D

More parties tonight..so tired now... will update more and post pictures on Monday. :D

A Day I Must Enjoy!!!

2006-07-28T17:00:00.000+08:00
It's my day today...and I really do wish I'll be enjoying it to the maximum!
Programs are fully lined up already. Hope all will turn up, and don't go home so early.
And also hope I don't get too drunk lah!!!
Bro P@t very nice, bringing me and my friends into MOS member's area, free entry and free flow from 9pm - 11pm!! WOhoo i'm gonna enjoy to the max man! And hope I'll get a membership card for my present!! *Cross Fingers*

Hehe...Following that, trance night at BBBC man!!! But well...other groups of friends asking me to go Double O cos BD celebration too!!! HAHA DUNNO WHAT TO CHOOSE AH!!!

Anyways...just hope I will be happy tonight.. :D
CheeRs

Song of The Day (Lonely)

2006-07-26T15:03:00.000+08:00
Lonely by Akon

Lonely, I'm Mr. lonely, I have nobody, to call my owwnnn
Lonely I'm Mr. Lonely I have nobody, to call my owwnn
Lonely, I'm Mr. lonely, I have nobody, to call my ownnn
I'm so lonely....
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there, man ya' know who got to have that one "good girl" whose always been there like took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave yeah.
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda' sworn I was dreamin', for her I was feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking on these few years, tryna' figure out what I gotta do to make it go back cause, ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin
(Chorus)
I'm so lonely (so lonely), I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely) I have nobody (i have nobody)
to call my ownnn(to call my owwnn)
I'm so lonely (so lonely), I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely), I have nobody (i have nobody), to call my owwnn (to call my own owwnn)
Cant believe I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put you thru you still stuck around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke your heart, baby you a good girl and I had no right, I really wanna make things right, cause without you in my life girl,
(Chorus)
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing you cause ain't nowhere in the globe I'd rather be, ain't no one in the globe I'd rather see, then the girl of my dreams that made me be so happy but now so lonely.
(Chrorus)
Never thought that I'd be alone, I didnt think you'd be gone this long, I just want you to call my phone, stop playing girl and come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished dat I would hurt my baby, and its drivin' me crazy cause i'm so...
(Chorus)
Lonely, So lonely, (so lonely), So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely,(Lonely) so lonely (so lonely), So lonely, (lonely), So lonely, (so lonely), so lonely (so lonely), Mr. Lonely.

35hz @ BBBC, 28 July (Fri) 2006

2006-07-26T14:59:00.000+08:00
35hz presents
Daniel Storey (Ibiza / UK)
Yukun (Singapore)

Date : Friday, 28 July 2006
Time : 11PM - 3AM
Venue : Barbaablackchic, 10 Perak Road, Singapore 208131

11.00 pm - 01.00 am : Daniel Storey
01.00 am - 03.00 am : Yukun

Song Of The Day (On Bended Knees)

2006-07-26T11:52:00.000+08:00
Really old song but Very meaningful lyrics...

On Bended Knees - Boyz II Men

Darlin' I, I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Boy, it's driving me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go

Can we go back to the days our love was strong?
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong?
Can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they used to be?
Oh, God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee

I'll never walk again
Until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight, and I know
That I don't need to be alone, yeah

When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you, come back to me

Baby, I'm sorry
Please forgive me for all the wrong I've done
Please come back home boy
I know you put all your trust in me
I'm sorry I let you down
Please come back

I'm gonna swallow my pride, Say I'm sorry, Stop pointing fingers
The blame is on me, I want a new life, And I want it with you
If you feel the same, Don't ever let it go, You gotta believe
In the spirit of love, It'll heal all things, We won't hurt anymore
No, I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees, Begging you please, Come home...

Can we go back to the days our love was strong?
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong?
Can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they used to be?
Oh, God give me a reason
I'm down on bended, down on bended knee

I'll never walk again
'Til you come back to me
I'm down on bended Knees

And so GERMANY is out...

2006-07-05T17:46:00.000+08:00
And so GERMANY is out.. the remaining team i supported... :(
Brazil, England, Germany all out.

Who's going to be next tonight? PORTUGAL OR FRANCE??

Who's going to fight at the finals??!!

Another long night tonight. gotta go see if my members enjoy the matches on big screen... :(
Can't wait to know who's getting out next too!!!

Upcoming EXCITING Matches

2006-06-29T21:49:00.000+08:00
The upcoming next few matches...so looking forward to catch them!!
- Germany Vs Argentina
- England Vs Portugal
- Brazil Vs France

These are the matches i'm so looking forward to catch, cos they made me have somethign to look forward to and keeps me occupied at night!

Can't wait for Semi Finals TOO!!!

The Tough Part

2006-06-29T09:37:00.000+08:00
It's been really tough these few days...but I managed to pull through..well it's only the 3rd day today. Been drinking and all so I can sleep immediately when I get back home.. 3rd day today and i'm falling sick, only after 2 days of continuous drinking. Those who know me, would know i'm not a good drinker yah :p

Friends who goes drinking on weekdays or weekends, ask me along lah :p I sometimes have difficulty looking for drinking partners, cos not alot of my friends drinks :p

Time to move on

2006-06-27T10:21:00.000+08:00
Well..it's really time to move on.. I'm a free soul now. :)

It's really painful

2006-06-24T00:03:00.000+08:00
It has been really painful...to try to get up on my feet again. I'm sorry my friends, i made you cry and worried.
Please understand that it is a really painful time for me now...I know i must get up on my feet. i know i must be strong. i know...but i guess it really takes time...
I've lost someone so important and precious in my life. It will really take time to heal.
When i cry, i'm not week, i do want to be strong please believe me. But it's just really difficult to get over everything so easily and so soon.
Dear friends, hope you understand.

I guess...it's really the end

2006-06-22T17:06:00.000+08:00
I guess it's really the end now... and i guess it's time to move on.
Friends, i'm so sorry if i'm not going to be myself lately. Give me some time. I'll be ok soon. just need time.

ALL I NEED IS JUST ONE MORE CHANCE!!!

2006-06-21T12:29:00.000+08:00
All i need is just one more chance!!! Just one more!!!
Please forgive me...i know i'm wrong and i will really change...please just give me one more chance.... please....please...that's all i want...please....

I made a wrong move again!

2006-06-21T12:00:00.000+08:00
I thought i was ok, i didn't cry for 2 days. But this morning i woke up and realize i was deceiving myself. hiding all my sadness and sorrows inside me, trying to put up a very strong front in front of colleagues and friends. Only to find out now how miserable and sad I am!!!
AND I MADE A FARKING WRONG MOVE TO CALL HIM!!!! NOW I SCARED HIM AWAY AGAIN!!!!
Now i really need some company,but my friends are either working or not able to meet. I really need some company. I just dunno how to hold myself together. I tot i could...but what's happening now... why is this happening...
All i need is just another chance from him...why does he still love me yet he doesn't want to give it another try...why is all these happening when i'm sure we can make things work out??!!!
ALL I NEED IS JUST ANOTHER CHANCE!!!!!
I want to be happy again, i want to be strong...i want to not cry... but...

Realisation...Recovery...Repent

2006-06-19T21:58:00.000+08:00
The wound is still raw...it's only the second day...yes..things are difficult.I've cried till i'm tired..and has no more energy to cry cos i didn't eat...It's time..it was really time i wake up, sit up and starting thinking ahead.
I went to my colleague, kenny's place today, to let him help me with a Reiki Healing session. If you dunno what's Reiki healing, it's a buddhism teaching and believe to heal oneself. After the healing session, i felt different, i felt awake, i felt light, i felt that it's time to be true to myself. He lent me a couple of new age buddhist chant cd and i'm listening to it now as i'm typing. Listening to it really helps me feel light hearted and anger-free. He also lent me a book titled " Working with Anger", which teaches one how to be more patient and less angry. After the healing session, I felt that it's time to work on things, and face things that i've always escaped from and hide from. Things I have thought about and want to face it and to change...

1) Realising what I did wrong:
As i think back...I was really in the wrong...that caused all these to happen. If i were to just be more patient, understanding, and less tempremental, things would have been better. I start to think and realise that whenever I get angry and flare up, it actually hurts not only me, but everyone around me, especially the one who is very important and precious to me. I have indirectly passed on alot of negative angry energy to everyone, that reflects badly on me. I'm asking myself now, why was I like that? But i guess there's no point thinking back now, I have to think of how to manage my anger and temper, so that i won't hurt anyone anymore.

2) When I cry:
Yes I do cry alot, crying is the only way to make me release my stress or anger and will make me feel better. i cry not because i'm weak, but it is one way to make me feel better. I guess if i have really learnt to control my anger, crying would be one of my way out, but please do not think i'm weak. I realise now, that i'm wrong, and it's time i repent my sins, and change for the better. For my own good, for everyone's happiness.

3) Friends:
I have been someway or another, neglected my friends for the past 3 years. I have never confided in them whenever i quarrelled with my Bf of whenever i have problems. I kept on leaning back on my bf, which i guess has gave him more pressure cos i'm throwing back the problem at him. It was only through this incident, that i realised, i was so wrong to have neglected all my friends. They were very encouraging and supportive, including my colleagues, my boss! All of them said very encouraging words to support me. Even people who I least expected to console me, they showed alot of support and care and concern. I'm really touched...and grateful. I really know now, how important friends really are...as what Benny has always said to me. I realize...i was wrong..and it's time for me to repent my sins, which is to change for the better.

4) Not to care too much:
I've been caring too much about what people say or think about me, which causes me to be very pressured and negative. Even though alot of times, Benny or my friends would advise me not to think or care too much because some things are not as bad as i think it is. I think it's really time i have to learn to know how when to listen and when not to. to learn how to take things in a lighter manner. This should also help in surpressing my anger.

5) Why didn't i give him freedom?
I guess i was really in the wrong to not give him the freedom, which build alot of pressure and unhappiness in him. Relationship should be about mutual trust, mutual understanding, and accepting the other half for who he/she is. If i trusted him enough, i wouldn't have not given him the freedom he wants. I should respect him and give him the freedom, like how he respects me and gives me the freedom. I guess i really am in the wrong and I have to work on this. To trust, to understand and to let go a bit.

In a short time of 2 days, I have come to realise who are my true friends and who really cares about me. I really apologize for having neglected many of you and doubting you or not listenting to your advises. I would like to thank Erika, Jyun, BJ, Isaac and Quan, Janicia, Yvonne, Lynette, Kevin, Kenny, Lyn, Juliet, Andrew, Darren, Eugene G & S, Leslie, my parents, my sis and last but not least Benny. These people cared for me and was there for me. This is really the first time i've ever felt so cared for and so supported. I've really never known there were so many people who cares for me. I have never felt this before. I'm really touched and no words can describe how grateful I am. Thank you all. The only way i can show gratification would be for me to be strong, and not disappoint you all. Give me time, i will be better. I will stand up on my feet again and be strong.

Not forgetting Melvin, though initially i had difficulties getting along with him and dislikes him. But overtime, i have accepted him as a friend. And He also did play a role in telling me how Benny is feeling, what he wants and what he thinks. As i've just read from the "working with anger" book, it says that the people who are helping u to change and improve is your enemy, not God or Buddha. Buddha is always patient and nice. Enemies are the ones that are giving you chances and opportunity to learn to subdue and control your anger.

As i'm listening to the chant..this is what it says...
May i be free from enmity and danger
May i be free from mental suffering
May i be free from physical suffering
May i take care of myself happily
May my parents, teachers, relatives and friends, fellow dharma farers
Be free from Enmity and danger
Be free from mental suffering
be free from physical suffering
May they take care of themselves happily

It's the end...

2006-06-19T08:47:00.000+08:00
2 weeks was definitely not enough for me to prove myself. I really needed more time! Why do you have to give up so soon? 3 years of time and effort has all been flushed down the drain. Is seperation the best solution? It's just a shortcut! Why does things have to end up this way??!! If you still love me why dont you believe that i will change? Give me more time and we'll be happy once again...
What I hate most now is this forgetting process, which is the most painful. How do I stay on and stay strong..It seems so difficult for me to face anyone and anything now!! HOW???!!!! I'M SPEECHLESS!!!!

World Cup Face Painting Fever @ Week 2

2006-06-17T13:14:00.000+08:00
Another week of world cup fever at Cineleisure. This time i set up my face painting booth on level 1, at the external area. Business was much better!! Not like i'm making money, it's a free service, but it's just satisfying when people want to get their face or hand painted. Last night Erika and I painted at least 10 people! Unlike last week, only about 2 per day.
One of the Singapore Idol's finalist from the first season, this guy, i can't remember his name lah. He and his whole group of about 8-9 friends all painted. Some wanted to paint Thailand flag cos they're from thailand, one painted singapore, and one painted holland with the text holland painted below the flag, cos don't want people to mistake that as Serbia Montenegro. Haha. Check out pictures below lah :D
Looks fun right??!!! Come down and let me paint you lah! Erika and I will be there every fri and sat 8pm - 11pm for the whole month of June :D

World Cup semi finals on big screen tickets !!!

2006-06-13T15:02:00.000+08:00
Hey hey all! Not sure how many people reads my blog but i'm just trying my luck lah! :D

Anyone keen on semi final matches on big screens (cineleisure cinema halls)??
I've got a really good deal here! Just pay $18, you'll get:
- 1 E2Max card for 1 year membership (worth $18)
- 1 goodie bag welcome pack (worth $38. Includes E2max e-game vouchers, bowling vouchers, limited edition trexi, electronic gaming monthly magazine, lanyard, tote bag)
- 1 x Cathay Cineleisure E-Cinema movie vouchers (worth $9.50 and can be used to watch any movie that is screened in E-cinemas, and any time)
- 5 x tickets to catch Semi Finals on big screens at Cathay Cineleisure Orchard.
(PRICELESS)

Just that simple, $18 and everything is yours!!!! Without any conditions!

Help me spread the words, and drop me a msg here or email me at aiko_strawberry28@hotmail.com if you're interested.
Show your support please :D CheeRs!

World Cup Fever at Cineleisure

2006-06-12T17:58:00.000+08:00
Just in case you don't know, you can actually catch nightly screening of live soccer matches at Cineleisure E2Max @ Cine-L9 (Level 9). Alot of activities going on at Cathay and E2Max!
Click here for more details lah!

Every fri and sat nights, I'm there to do face / hand painting of flags for free!! So support your fav team, and support me, come let me paint on you lah!!! :P See below, i painted the Korean flag! U want brazil also can ah! Come lah :p
My friend Erika will paint soccer ball for you! :P

Coming Back Performance

2006-06-08T00:02:00.000+08:00
RISE will be performing at Singapore Street Festival 2006, Thursday 8th July 8pm at Cineleisure. This time, I'm doing a Coming back performance. No no it's not going to be SLUFFLE!
I was with RISE 3 years ago. RISE is actually a sing and dance girl group, and had performed at quite a few places before. Well well, i miss performing, so since I'm still not VERY old and still got a bit of that performing zest and energy, I thought i can just make a little come back on the stage. :D
I'll just be singing lah, no time to practice dance with my 2 seniors, Jyun and Erika :p
If you wanna hear how horrible I sing, do come down and support but dun throw eggs lah k :P no banana skins too :P
It's late now cos just got back from practice. Super tiring and hectic week this week. Good nite for now :)

A ray of hope

2006-06-05T21:28:00.000+08:00
I've been given ONE LAST CHANCE....and this time...i will have to no matter what...take this chance and make life happy for both of us... I will be better..and I have to be better...it's just for my own good..and also for our own good.
Please have faith in me...faith in us...my dear baby..my dear friends...a better me will emerge for a better life and future. I must be happy and I will be happier...cos I want to be!

The end has come...

2006-06-05T10:57:00.000+08:00
Many unforseen stuffs has happened for the past 2 weeks. Things that I didn't even expect could happen.
After coming to 3 years of happiness and sadness...things will be coming to an end soon...something I really don't wish to happen...someone i can't be without...many things that I have gained throughout these years...may be coming to an end soon.
I know..there are no shortcuts to life, but some people are strong enough to go on...some may not be strong enough to even hold on. Some people likes to take short cuts in every aspect of life...some doesn't. Some just don't give a damn at all.

My Baby..I just want to tell you that i'm sorry...and i've taken too many chances in life already and I know there are not many more left. I thank u for your guidance and care and love. These few years has been a fruitful one... both emotionally and physically. both your babies will remember you for life and will always love you... eternally... you've been really special..you were my sunshine... you were my meaning to life... Our future is not meant to be seen, it's meant to be created...but life has just that few chances for one to take, to make things happen. I guess the chances I'm given has way exceeded it's limits. I'm really sorry...i really am...

BigWalk 2006

2006-05-22T21:01:00.000+08:00
First time in my whole life!! :D
I was the one who initiated, and invited the whole "Occasional Gang"
Presentees:
- Me, Benny, Melvin, BJ, Isaac, Quan, Erika, Jyun, Sabrina. (total 9)
The very first ever healthy group activity we ever had, for the last 4 years!
All was supposed to report at 6.45am at Plaza Singapure bus stop, to take the shuttle bus into kallang, all were late !!!! Except Melvin, Benny and I were on time, so we sat at Macs and had breakfast while waiting for them.
Let me announce... JYUN, ISAAC and BJ, hhuurrr wake up at around 6.45am, and that's the meeting time!!! These people...hhmmm. Nvm...
Other than the late thingy...everything went on well!!!
It was really fun! It was quite difficult during the first 3Km, guess it's the hot sun and sweat and us not getting used to such OUTDOOR fun that's causing us all to dread along the way (otherwise, all will be more than glad to just stay home and MAHJONG!!! but not me lah). After we all hit 5km, everything seemed really easy.Benny and Melvin cracked alot of funny jokes and made lots of funny movements along the way. Catch the video clip below.
I jogged and walked along the way.. I KNOW I KNOW IT'S BIG WALK...but i just wanted to jog cos i miss jogging! and it's been like dunno how long since i got into the sun! Anyways..i'm just so proud of myself, in the hot sun (and i hate sun and being in the sun cos i'll get headache!), i finished 10km without stopping to rest...and I'm the first among my group to finish the 10km. also becos i was rushing for time! My hr manager was waiting for me at the ending point! :p
Anyways... see pics below lah :p

Click here if you can't see the video clip.

Haado Gei FOOOOO!!!!

2006-05-21T23:24:00.000+08:00
Think most of you should have heard about this "Hard Gay Dance" thingy... aka in japanese "Haado Gei" !
This gay goes around in japan, scaring people humurously with his "erotic pelvis thrust dance".
You can find most of the clips in www.youtube.com
Sexy... Funny... yaFOOOOOO!!!!
Though the sad thing is it's in japanese and no subtitles.
But his actions are enough to make you LAUGH OUT LOUD for the day :p
For your daily dosage of laughter... watch "Haado Gei"!!

Here's 2 funny ones i saw last night. see how he plays with kids!!! ....
Hard Gay Intro - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e8yKwlvevGw
Hard Gay at the PlayGround - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2E3hetDx5o

That's all for today. good nite.

Acceleration Acceleration

2006-05-19T09:21:00.000+08:00
Yukun + Boon @ Liquid Room, 19 May (Fri) 2006

ACCELERATION presents Yukun & Boon
Date : Friday, 19 May 2006
Time : 11PM - 3AM
Venue : Liquid Room, 76 Robertson Quay #01-05 The Gallery Hotel, Singapore (238254).

11.00 pm - 01.00 am : Yukun
01.00 am - 03.00 am : Boon

Video Clip of the Week!

2006-05-13T13:26:00.000+08:00
From now onwards, i'll be posting interesting video clips weekly! Courtesy from YouTube and myself.
Just click on the "STOP" icon on the task bar once the blog page is fully loaded, then click on the PLAY button of the video clip.
ENJOY!!! :D

Vesak Day Buys!!!

2006-05-13T12:02:00.000+08:00
Eh Darren bro, paiseh lah, haha no time to take the pics of my buys from the Timberlux flea mart lah. dun feel like :p haha. But i took the pics of my Vesak Day buys!!! Check them out man!!! My new CAFE!!! HAHAHA
Oh sad huh didn't go to BBBC on vesak eve, cos I was too tired from work. Will go LR next sat. Confirm!!!

Timberlux Flea Day

2006-05-04T14:27:00.000+08:00

Check out the webbie for more details.

Hey, looks like someone just chopped off my head and place it on the ground and took the pic!!! HAHAHA

Chill Out At The Cathay

2006-05-03T12:07:00.000+08:00