unhappiness...unecessary...

I'm going thru so much unecessary sufferings now...my life and career seems to be jeopardised and going down the drain... my health now is also at stake.
I feel so tired, everyday, even though I sleep early, and have at least 8 hours of sleep each day.
I feel so week and my whole body ache. I feel depressed. I get easily agitated.
And i'm unknowingly putting on weight. All these are symptoms of some stupid sickness!!!
I HATE MYSELF NOW!!!!
Doc says i might either have chronic fatigue syndrome, or thyroid.
My blood test is not out yet. tomorrow the results will tell..

Is it just my mind making me suffer or is it really my health?

And zouk out is just 2 days away. what am i going to do? :(