It's really painful

It has been really painful...to try to get up on my feet again. I'm sorry my friends, i made you cry and worried.
Please understand that it is a really painful time for me now...I know i must get up on my feet. i know i must be strong. i know...but i guess it really takes time...
I've lost someone so important and precious in my life. It will really take time to heal.
When i cry, i'm not week, i do want to be strong please believe me. But it's just really difficult to get over everything so easily and so soon.
Dear friends, hope you understand.