Friendzone & Intricacy

Yet another weekend of fun and laughter with my dear friends!!!

Had a great nite at Zirca with Jon O'Bir last nite (sat 13th June 09)...with Kenny, Darren and Charles. Great tracks...not so packed (like Zouk) but I was damn tired and drained from FLEA FLY FLO FUN at F1 Pit Building earlier in the day. Didn't even manage to sell enough to cover my rental cost. Luckily we split one table's rental of $65 between 4 pax. LOL. There were just too many vendors...200 of them... and I think there seems to be more vendors than shoppers. LOL.

Anyways.. our we had our very first OUTDOOR HEALTHY LIFESTYLE outing at East Coast Park today, with Kenny, Roger, Marilyn, Rong, Jyun, Sabbie, Niki and Steven! Quite good attendance for a first time :) All of us cycled but Jyun, Niki and Steven blade. After 1 and half hour of cycling and blading, we continued with 2 games of bowling. Then had Kenny Rogers for dinner.

Silly things that happened today:
- I was rushing out cos was already late to meet the pals at ECP, i wore 2 different slippers and only realised it when I got off the bus at Marine Terrace. LOL. Lucky Kenny lived nearby so went up to change slippers.
- Steven shuffles his way and slip and fell on the bowling lane...nice one.
- My bowling ball fell backwards.
- Kenny missed his strike cos steven shouted out his name loudly to distract him.

Lastly...I know he's a bastard...but seriously I do miss him..and am still thinking of him. I deleted him from my msn..so I won't feel upset when I see him online. Before I deleted him..he doesn't msn me. After I deleted him...he started to msn me..What is he trying to do? He say he does miss me..he's confusing me..he's toying with my feelings... I tot i've already set my heart and mind to move on. But whatever he is doing now...it is intricate when..he keeps coming back into my life...and disheartens my heart and soul...damn...I wonder how long this is gonna last...

Intruder...

This blardy intruder...came into my life... and wrecked my ship!!!
Argh!!! I hate monday blues and on top of this... clearing up this stupid mess inside my heart and soul and mind!!!

Silly things I did when I fell into his farking trap!

- spent lots on international call and sms with him while I was in melacca.
- Did french mani and pedi and in sweet baby pink and white colour..cos he said we're having dinner with him and his friends...baby pink and white...SO NOT ME MAN!!! ARGH!!! TOO SWEET!!!
- skipped 2 days of work getting over this farker...
- even considered to quit clubbing just so to suit his requirements... (am never gonna change myself for anyone..not this way)
- was stupidly in cloud 9...when it was a mishaps more than a sweet bliss
- naively believed his sweet nothings...and stupidly trusted him...
- think this is enuf of silly things done in 2 weeks..there are more but not to be mentioned... REALLY STUPID BITCH!!!

I know it all happened to soon, and good that it ended fast enough too.. so that I won't get too deeply hurt....cos I'm an emo bitch who gets hurt very easily... ARGH!!! I feel so manipulated and deceived and blah blah blah! Shit ass experience...

Everytime when i'm happy being alone...up on my feet standing tall...some asshole has to come into my life and spoil everything...and I have to start fresh all over again... it's such a terrible vicious cycle that keeps on repeating and repeating... to the point that.. I seriously dunno what's wrong and how to handle it... argh...i'm lost...

Thanks to all those out there..who has indirectly made me a stronger person... and thanks friends for staying by my side see and listen to me cry and go with me through tough times... I'll be ok in no time..and stronger!!!

Walk Away

In within a short 2 weeks, so many thing has happened. At the end of it, is yet another closure of a new chatper...a chapter of many bizarre ups and downs... time to walk away...

Kenny and I ended the month of Trancing MAYhem...trancing away at 2 days of FREEDOM at Melecca...with a group of new people..who we unfortunatly couldn't really bond well with...10 of us went up to Melacca, A Famosa, in a mini van...with seats half the size of what u can enjoy on Five Star Travels or Grasslands coaches. But we get to have the mini van all to ourselves to transport around for the entire 3 days trip. All 10 of us squeezed in the mini van but somehow had sufficient space in the 3 bedroom villa at A Famosa. Of cos, can't be compared to the one at Sentosa Amara Sanctuary. And for some reason... I got to sleep on the KING SIZE BED in the masterbedroom... all to myself...for both nights!!! WOOHOO!!!! :D And no I didn't pay more..paid the same as everyone else :p Lots of ups and downs during this trip...but then again can't complain or expect much when u're out with a group of 10. So...the next time if such trip is going to happen... it has to be with people who we know or are close with or are ok travelling with...such as...D & F... S & N... P & P... blah blah blah...

FREEDOM:
- Large party venue, with theme-park joy rides...and food stalls (KFC...hotdogs...ice water at RM7 for one big cup)..ample space for people to walk...ample tables and chairs set up for people to sit and eat.
- NO ALCOHOL SOLD AT ALL at the party vicinity... so first nite there...we were all not high enough...
- Very big main stage set up... which cannot be compared at all to Zoukout's main stage...
- Fantabulous awesome generous lazer show! OMFG!!!
- Ferry Corsten's MADE OF LOVE with Betsie Larkin singing live was an awesome one! It almost felt like what I see in ARMIN / Tiesto's DVD.
- Wasn't crowded at all..I feel..as compared to Zoukout...definitely not more than 5000 pax I suppose... cos I dun seem to have problem finding our own people... and there's lots of space to walk around...
- The "merry-go-round" joyride was a good one..really pumped up the adrenaline...good enuf to get the party started..then head over to the main stage...
- Overall... good experience cos it was my first time attending an overseas gig...but how I wish 100% of my heart and soul was there with me...cos it was not...

Bizarre Ups and Downs:
Met someone new...who played mind games...cheated my feelings...who expects me to change my lifestyle for him...wanted me to quit clubbing!!!
If one is to change his / her lifestyle..then that someone will lose her original personalities and unique characteristics which represents who they are. So I have come to realise that...it's not right the right way!!! And his sweet nothings and mind games almost made me fall for his silly trap!
In within 2 weeks... a bizarre love...or should I call it..bizarre mishaps... I shall not go too much into details...but overall..SHITTY EXPERIENCE!!!
Silly me took more than required time to snap out of this whole shitty situation! But at least I've finally woken up...yet another fantabulous experience which made me stronger and wiser...and eyes open much much much bigger...

It's time to walk away...