NYE Parties!

List of places to go:

First of all: NYE URBAN RELOAD @ CINELEISURE
(Put together by my team and I)



Secondly: PROGRESSIONS NYE 2007



Others:
Sentosa
National Museum
VivoCity
Expo - Mambo Jambo

So Many Places To Go!

With so many night spots opened lately, The Cannery (Clinic, Barfly, Kandi, Buddha Bar....), St James Powerhouse...re-opened Madam Wong...now really no excuse as "No where to go leh". It's more like, "where should i go? got so many to choose from!"

Let's see where will my new fav spot me...I haven't tried any of the new places yet.

Another new nice place to chill and hangout, if you're a gamer, E2Max @ The Cathay buidling! It's at level 4.
This time round, no private chamber rooms, but really nice clubby ambience.
Wine is sold there, of cos age limit applies.
Do check out this place if you're around the corner.

results and ZoukOut

Results turns out, yes..i was worrying too much..and too complicated to tell in details.

Anyways, good enough, I made it to ZoukOut.
Was so looking forward to it just had to force myself to rest alot on sat before
I head out.
At first, it was still quite fun, but I must say this year was not as good as last
year. Ferry Corsten's set seems very Blunt. no taste. Not high at all.
And dunno why, I couldn't seem drink much this time round, that's why didn't manage
to get high enough to get into the feel and groove of ZoukOut.
And I didn't wanna get drunk or puke, so I controlled my inputs.
And my group and I left at 5am...and smoothly and surely made our way to breakfast, then head back home for a blardy good sleep.

Anyways, back to monday blues again. What's there to look forward to next?

unhappiness...unecessary...

I'm going thru so much unecessary sufferings now...my life and career seems to be jeopardised and going down the drain... my health now is also at stake.
I feel so tired, everyday, even though I sleep early, and have at least 8 hours of sleep each day.
I feel so week and my whole body ache. I feel depressed. I get easily agitated.
And i'm unknowingly putting on weight. All these are symptoms of some stupid sickness!!!
I HATE MYSELF NOW!!!!
Doc says i might either have chronic fatigue syndrome, or thyroid.
My blood test is not out yet. tomorrow the results will tell..

Is it just my mind making me suffer or is it really my health?

And zouk out is just 2 days away. what am i going to do? :(

Cineleisure's FANTASTIC Promotions!!!

Hey guys, check this out and support yah! :D

A New Addition!

Just got this done on monday.
Power Pain! BUT SHIOK! :P

A Party not to be missed!

Hi hi friends...
this party is only for E2max card members, but i would like to
extend a few invite out to my friends.
A party with free movies, free e-gaming, free food and drinks!
Please see below visual, and sms me asap if you would like to
come for this party.
Come and support this party put together by my team and I. :D

Up and Coming!

25th of Nov Armin van Burren @ Zouk
2nd of Dec Marco V @ Zouk
9th of Dec - ZOUKOUT! ZOUKOUT!

Armin and Zoukout...DIE DIE MUST GO!!!! :P

A couple of pics from Halloween Masquerade.
The SATAN returns... :p hahahaha

Progressions: The Halloween Masquerade

Cafe Del Mar Singapore

Hey hey !!! I'm so excited bout this! Singapore's very own Cafe Del Mar!
Check out the website, and register yourself on their mailing list
and stand a chance to win exclusive membership privileges and a MOTOKRZR!

http://www.cafedelmar.com.sg/main/

Another new venue to chill and be seen at. wahahaha

I'm Back from BKK!!!

Back back back!!!
First time i went BKK and didn't enjoy to the max,
and couldn't wait to come back to Singapore! Can't believe it!
This trip, i ate quite little, not like last time i would eat 5 - 6 times a day.
This time.. this trip.. overall.. was quite stressful... :(
We stayed in a guesthouse along Khao Sarn Road, called Sawasdee Bangkok Inn.
Cheap and good. Cosy. with Purple walls. haha.
All in all each of us had to only spend SGD$55 for 5 nights of hotel stay!
But all 4 of us had to squeeze in a double room lah. well. what to do.

So much to tell about the trip but not very nice to tell here. haha.
One kept on losing her way... one kept on buying things without really knowing
the price and always asking us to choose for her...one didn't buy much..and one (me) in the middle of all 3 of them. This is just the appetizer...haha.
Maybe I'm quite sick of Bkk already. not even excited bout the food there.

Well.. me got meself a new "tattoo"..to bring out the LIAN in me. wahahaha!!!
.. Check out the pic! Hee hee!
Will post more pics when uploaded.

ONE MORE DAY !!!

1 more day to go to my BKK extravaganza! WOOHOO!!!

Anyways.. I watched this movie called IMAGINE YOU AND ME last nite.
I must say... LESBIAN POWER!!!!!!!
It's about this couple, who just got married after many years being together.
They love each other so much, they're best friends, best lovemates and best everything practically.
Then at their wedding, the lady who did the flower decorations of the wedding, went
up to the Bride and greeted her. Think it was love at first sight for both of them!
At the end of the movie..she left her husband, for the flower girl.
SEE!!! LESBIAN POWER!! WOOHOO!!! :p

Counting down - 2 MORE DAYS

Counting down... 2 more days to go and off I fly to BKK!!!
Thurs 10++ flight... it'll be a damn BITCHY trip..
Attendance: Joanne, Alicia, Diana and I!
How bitchier can things get man? Can't imagine!
Alamak..Just can't wait to LEAVE WORK HERE AND HAVE LOTSA FUN!!!
Shop..eat..massage...waxing...drinks...clubbing...happying man!!!
Can't wait can't wait!
Meanwhile, most importantly...do a proper handover..if not sure kenna
F***ed! :p And lets daydream at the same time too. wahahaha

What a boring day

Today time passing by too slowly...dunno why... unlike yesterday...not enough time to do work.
Now i'm desperately searching for things to do...

Let's talk about my baby Lush.
I seem to be loving her more and more. She sleeps with me on my bed every night.
She's so super hyper active and just loves attention!
She's getting fatter and cuter!
She's just so lovable and adorable..can't wait to go home and see her...

And so the Results

Think all should know by now... HADY MIRZA was crowned Singapore Idol 2006 last night. Tears of sadness and disappointment rolled down my cheeks lah. aiyoh.
Think Singapore Idol should be called MELAYU IDOL instead lah! NO OFFENCE!
Yes I do agree Hady can sing, Jon too! But oh well... what to do..the kampung spirit
was very strong... the cheers and screems from Hady's fans was double of Jon's fans.

Nevertheless... I'll still support Jon. As what Ken said, he'll easily make it for a regional artiste. Dunno is it good or bad huh...

Let's just see where will Hady go... Taufik went to 7-11... maybe Hady will go JJ drinks.

Progressions presents Pleasure Island

Click HERE to view the blog.

Singapore Idol Performance Show

Was there last nite..though i'm not a really hardcore fan but just there to support..since I got the tickets and since I've seen them for quite a few autograph sessions at Cineleisure... so just go support.

Whenever I see HIM on stage... I would think of "him"...
Whenever HE sings... I would imagine "him" singing...
Whenever HE sings... his sincerity and emotions would touch my heart...
Whenever HE sings... my heart would ache...and I would tear...

Tonight is the results show... I do hope HE will be crowned the Singapore Idol.

Trancing Trancing

I just got back from Gabriel and Dresden at Zouk. It's been such a long time.
I used to hate trance so much... but now I know how to appreciate it and love it.
Whenever I'm at a trance event, I would enjoy it so much..I would enjoy it double...for myself..and for someone who was very important... i would enjoy it on behalf of him too.. cos he's not there...

Trance..it's just something someone must learn to appreciate.

Jokes at Work

Here's a couple of jokes cracked during lunch time at work.

1) There was once we were walking back to office after our lunch, walking along Mhd Sultan road.
The wind was strong, even I lost a bit of balance while walking. Among us we have a female colleauge who is really skinny. She weighs about 42 kg. Let's refer her as Jen. So we were joking about the wind being really strong, and it'll porbably blow her away...then she'll get stuck or cling on to one of the trees screaming " help me help me, get me down". We visualised it and laughed out really loud. But, she wasn't there with us.

We told her about the joke the next day at lunch, she was so funny and she added on saying " good lah next time I can use this as an excuse when I'm late for work, the wind too strong I can't walk. " Hahaha

2) We were talking about nice food and where to find them and all, then one of us, let's refer her as Jan, wanted to say TOA PAYOH...slip of tongue and say too fast, said "TOH POH YOH" instead! Situation was so funny and we laughed until our faces all turned red.

I just love lunch moments. really helps to destress. :D

Singapore Idol Live Screening Tickets

It's the FINAL SHOWDOWN!
Counting down, 3 days to go!
For fanatics...here's 2 ways you can watch Singapore Idol LIVE,
other than watching on TV 5.

Indoor Stadium:
I have 1 pair of tickets, for both the performance and results show.
Selling at $50 per ticket. Good seats. PM Me if interested.

Live on Big Screen:
You can also catch both the performance and results show live at
Cathay Cineplex Orchard, in the cinemas itself!
Just pay $15 ($10 for E2Max card members) and you'll get free flow of
popcorn and drinks, and a FREE ADMISSION PASS to catch the live screening!
Purchase your special Idol combo now at Cineleisure Level 9 counter!

Progressions on 9th Sept @ BBBC

TOPSHOP BAZAAR SALE!!!

Retail Therapy

I went shopping at Suntec & Marina with Pearly yest night after work.
RETAIL THERAPY IS ALWAYS THE BEST!!!!
Went to TopShop to look for Alicia, it was the last day of the 70% sales.
Then went to Ebase at Marina..I think the whole shop is on sale!
Pants from $15 - $20, dresses from $15 - $25, tops from $10 onwards!
Sale like hell lah!!!
In total, I spent $132 for 7 pieces of clothes!
I got 3 tops from Topshop, 3 dresses and 1 pants from Ebase. Power lah!
In average one piece only about $18!
YEEHAA!

Clearing Up the Mess

Think I had enough time to be messy and be in trouble..time to wake up.
Get rid of the unecessary stuffs, and bring back the important stuffs.
You know there are times when you suddenly will just wake up and clear up the mess you're in. Well... i really dun wanna lose my friends or anything else that is really important to me.. so i guess it's time i get my acts right.
I must try to balance...balance in order to have a healthy and happy lifestyle.
I must... I must...

Song of The Day (Goodbye My Lover)

GOODBYE MY LOVER - James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Today's Words Of Wisdom

"For everything you have missed, you have gained something else; and for everything you gain, you lose something." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

For everything that i've missed out for the past 3 years, my family, the fun, my friends, neglected those who wanted to be there for me and those who care for me, I started a journey of independence to search and bring them back, when I lose something so very important.
During this journey...I've earned alot of those that I've missed out...but at the same time...losing them slowly...as other new stuffs are being earned.

I do not wish to lose the care and concern, and the respect from my friends, just for one thing that I have earned during this journey in search of independence.
I do not want to lose my friends for any reason at all. I seek your understanding friends. Please talk to me...

Life Is Going To Get Better @ The Cathay

Singapore Idol LOSER!

WooHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! RAHIMAH RAHIM IS OUT!!!!
No offence to anyone yeah...but I seriously can't stand her!
Her face, her actions, trying to act rock and act cute at the same time..
the way she sings... her everything!!! BLAH!!!!
Such a fake poser loser rocker!!!!!!!

Next one I hope out..but I know quite impossible lah... the LUP CHEONG TWOHILL!!!
Hahaha.

Jonathan's the best lah :p

Photo taken at Autograph session of Top 8, at Cineleisure last sat 5th Aug.

TranceParade post coverage

TRANCE PARADE was blardy FANTASTIC! but super packed. First time I see BBBC so packed!! Woohoo!!! P@T popular ah!!! And he loves to do the Singapore Work out at the console!! Good Job! NExt time all do together! Please initiate the moves ok! I'll sure join in! :p
I didn't take any photos this time. But someone (malay botak guy with eyebrow stud, and calls me Purple) came up to me and took a photo of me and my friends!!! Can that someone please PM me or post me a message please. Cos i dunno who are u!! :D Thanks dude.
By the way... BBBC...my prefered and recommended venue to chill and be seen at :P

That's all for now lah. Nothing much to talk bout NDP yest. Ciaos for now.

Introducing.... LUSH!!!!!

Introducing a new family member.. and a new love of my life...my baby... LUSH!
I just brought her home on sunday, 30th July. A birthday present I bought for myself. :D

Song of The Day ( Where'd You Go)

Where'd You Go by Fort Minor
(Chorus:)
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
(Intro:)
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
(Verse 1:)
She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit
and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
Because your voice always helps to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say,
so I want you to know it's a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
(Chorus)
(Verse 1:)
You know, the place where you used to live
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while, Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine, I plan to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
(Chorus)
(Verse 3:)
I want you to know it's a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debating
Tired of sitting and hating and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless
It seems one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please come back home[x5]

Thanks All

Was quite fun at MOS last night, drinking free flow at the new member's area.
Those who came were Lyn, Jeremy and his friand Liangwu, and Liangwu's friend, Andrew, Alicia and 2 of his girl friends, Felicia, Sabrina and Kelly. Thanks all for coming. :D
Well...since drinks were free and not limited to housepours only, we drank all sorts. Had alot of fun drinking and taking photos and hunting for elligible bachelors. HAha.
Supposed to go to BBBC but end up didn't cos the whole group wants R&B!!!
So sorry I couldn't make it to BBBC...sorry...next time k.

Anyways, received quite a few gifts and 2 of which I love very much. Now I got what i've always wanted. PURE PURPLE by Hugo Boss and Dolly Love by Anna Sui..2 bottles of fragrance :D SO HAPPY!! :D

More parties tonight..so tired now... will update more and post pictures on Monday. :D

A Day I Must Enjoy!!!

It's my day today...and I really do wish I'll be enjoying it to the maximum!
Programs are fully lined up already. Hope all will turn up, and don't go home so early.
And also hope I don't get too drunk lah!!!
Bro P@t very nice, bringing me and my friends into MOS member's area, free entry and free flow from 9pm - 11pm!! WOhoo i'm gonna enjoy to the max man! And hope I'll get a membership card for my present!! *Cross Fingers*

Hehe...Following that, trance night at BBBC man!!! But well...other groups of friends asking me to go Double O cos BD celebration too!!! HAHA DUNNO WHAT TO CHOOSE AH!!!

Anyways...just hope I will be happy tonight.. :D
CheeRs

Song of The Day (Lonely)

Lonely by Akon

Lonely, I'm Mr. lonely, I have nobody, to call my owwnnn
Lonely I'm Mr. Lonely I have nobody, to call my owwnn
Lonely, I'm Mr. lonely, I have nobody, to call my ownnn
I'm so lonely....
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there, man ya' know who got to have that one "good girl" whose always been there like took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave yeah.
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda' sworn I was dreamin', for her I was feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking on these few years, tryna' figure out what I gotta do to make it go back cause, ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin
(Chorus)
I'm so lonely (so lonely), I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely) I have nobody (i have nobody)
to call my ownnn(to call my owwnn)
I'm so lonely (so lonely), I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely), I have nobody (i have nobody), to call my owwnn (to call my own owwnn)
Cant believe I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put you thru you still stuck around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke your heart, baby you a good girl and I had no right, I really wanna make things right, cause without you in my life girl,
(Chorus)
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing you cause ain't nowhere in the globe I'd rather be, ain't no one in the globe I'd rather see, then the girl of my dreams that made me be so happy but now so lonely.
(Chrorus)
Never thought that I'd be alone, I didnt think you'd be gone this long, I just want you to call my phone, stop playing girl and come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished dat I would hurt my baby, and its drivin' me crazy cause i'm so...
(Chorus)
Lonely, So lonely, (so lonely), So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely,(Lonely) so lonely (so lonely), So lonely, (lonely), So lonely, (so lonely), so lonely (so lonely), Mr. Lonely.

35hz @ BBBC, 28 July (Fri) 2006

35hz presents
Daniel Storey (Ibiza / UK)
Yukun (Singapore)

Date : Friday, 28 July 2006
Time : 11PM - 3AM
Venue : Barbaablackchic, 10 Perak Road, Singapore 208131

11.00 pm - 01.00 am : Daniel Storey
01.00 am - 03.00 am : Yukun

Song Of The Day (On Bended Knees)

Really old song but Very meaningful lyrics...

On Bended Knees - Boyz II Men

Darlin' I, I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Boy, it's driving me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go

Can we go back to the days our love was strong?
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong?
Can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they used to be?
Oh, God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee

I'll never walk again
Until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight, and I know
That I don't need to be alone, yeah

When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you, come back to me

Baby, I'm sorry
Please forgive me for all the wrong I've done
Please come back home boy
I know you put all your trust in me
I'm sorry I let you down
Please come back

I'm gonna swallow my pride, Say I'm sorry, Stop pointing fingers
The blame is on me, I want a new life, And I want it with you
If you feel the same, Don't ever let it go, You gotta believe
In the spirit of love, It'll heal all things, We won't hurt anymore
No, I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees, Begging you please, Come home...

Can we go back to the days our love was strong?
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong?
Can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they used to be?
Oh, God give me a reason
I'm down on bended, down on bended knee

I'll never walk again
'Til you come back to me
I'm down on bended Knees

And so GERMANY is out...

And so GERMANY is out.. the remaining team i supported... :(
Brazil, England, Germany all out.

Who's going to be next tonight? PORTUGAL OR FRANCE??

Who's going to fight at the finals??!!

Another long night tonight. gotta go see if my members enjoy the matches on big screen... :(
Can't wait to know who's getting out next too!!!

Upcoming EXCITING Matches

The upcoming next few matches...so looking forward to catch them!!
- Germany Vs Argentina
- England Vs Portugal
- Brazil Vs France

These are the matches i'm so looking forward to catch, cos they made me have somethign to look forward to and keeps me occupied at night!

Can't wait for Semi Finals TOO!!!

The Tough Part

It's been really tough these few days...but I managed to pull through..well it's only the 3rd day today. Been drinking and all so I can sleep immediately when I get back home.. 3rd day today and i'm falling sick, only after 2 days of continuous drinking. Those who know me, would know i'm not a good drinker yah :p

Friends who goes drinking on weekdays or weekends, ask me along lah :p I sometimes have difficulty looking for drinking partners, cos not alot of my friends drinks :p

Time to move on

Well..it's really time to move on.. I'm a free soul now. :)

It's really painful

It has been really painful...to try to get up on my feet again. I'm sorry my friends, i made you cry and worried.
Please understand that it is a really painful time for me now...I know i must get up on my feet. i know i must be strong. i know...but i guess it really takes time...
I've lost someone so important and precious in my life. It will really take time to heal.
When i cry, i'm not week, i do want to be strong please believe me. But it's just really difficult to get over everything so easily and so soon.
Dear friends, hope you understand.

I guess...it's really the end

I guess it's really the end now... and i guess it's time to move on.
Friends, i'm so sorry if i'm not going to be myself lately. Give me some time. I'll be ok soon. just need time.

ALL I NEED IS JUST ONE MORE CHANCE!!!

All i need is just one more chance!!! Just one more!!!
Please forgive me...i know i'm wrong and i will really change...please just give me one more chance.... please....please...that's all i want...please....

I made a wrong move again!

I thought i was ok, i didn't cry for 2 days. But this morning i woke up and realize i was deceiving myself. hiding all my sadness and sorrows inside me, trying to put up a very strong front in front of colleagues and friends. Only to find out now how miserable and sad I am!!!
AND I MADE A FARKING WRONG MOVE TO CALL HIM!!!! NOW I SCARED HIM AWAY AGAIN!!!!
Now i really need some company,but my friends are either working or not able to meet. I really need some company. I just dunno how to hold myself together. I tot i could...but what's happening now... why is this happening...
All i need is just another chance from him...why does he still love me yet he doesn't want to give it another try...why is all these happening when i'm sure we can make things work out??!!!
ALL I NEED IS JUST ANOTHER CHANCE!!!!!
I want to be happy again, i want to be strong...i want to not cry... but...

Realisation...Recovery...Repent

The wound is still raw...it's only the second day...yes..things are difficult.I've cried till i'm tired..and has no more energy to cry cos i didn't eat...It's time..it was really time i wake up, sit up and starting thinking ahead.
I went to my colleague, kenny's place today, to let him help me with a Reiki Healing session. If you dunno what's Reiki healing, it's a buddhism teaching and believe to heal oneself. After the healing session, i felt different, i felt awake, i felt light, i felt that it's time to be true to myself. He lent me a couple of new age buddhist chant cd and i'm listening to it now as i'm typing. Listening to it really helps me feel light hearted and anger-free. He also lent me a book titled " Working with Anger", which teaches one how to be more patient and less angry. After the healing session, I felt that it's time to work on things, and face things that i've always escaped from and hide from. Things I have thought about and want to face it and to change...

1) Realising what I did wrong:
As i think back...I was really in the wrong...that caused all these to happen. If i were to just be more patient, understanding, and less tempremental, things would have been better. I start to think and realise that whenever I get angry and flare up, it actually hurts not only me, but everyone around me, especially the one who is very important and precious to me. I have indirectly passed on alot of negative angry energy to everyone, that reflects badly on me. I'm asking myself now, why was I like that? But i guess there's no point thinking back now, I have to think of how to manage my anger and temper, so that i won't hurt anyone anymore.

2) When I cry:
Yes I do cry alot, crying is the only way to make me release my stress or anger and will make me feel better. i cry not because i'm weak, but it is one way to make me feel better. I guess if i have really learnt to control my anger, crying would be one of my way out, but please do not think i'm weak. I realise now, that i'm wrong, and it's time i repent my sins, and change for the better. For my own good, for everyone's happiness.

3) Friends:
I have been someway or another, neglected my friends for the past 3 years. I have never confided in them whenever i quarrelled with my Bf of whenever i have problems. I kept on leaning back on my bf, which i guess has gave him more pressure cos i'm throwing back the problem at him. It was only through this incident, that i realised, i was so wrong to have neglected all my friends. They were very encouraging and supportive, including my colleagues, my boss! All of them said very encouraging words to support me. Even people who I least expected to console me, they showed alot of support and care and concern. I'm really touched...and grateful. I really know now, how important friends really are...as what Benny has always said to me. I realize...i was wrong..and it's time for me to repent my sins, which is to change for the better.

4) Not to care too much:
I've been caring too much about what people say or think about me, which causes me to be very pressured and negative. Even though alot of times, Benny or my friends would advise me not to think or care too much because some things are not as bad as i think it is. I think it's really time i have to learn to know how when to listen and when not to. to learn how to take things in a lighter manner. This should also help in surpressing my anger.

5) Why didn't i give him freedom?
I guess i was really in the wrong to not give him the freedom, which build alot of pressure and unhappiness in him. Relationship should be about mutual trust, mutual understanding, and accepting the other half for who he/she is. If i trusted him enough, i wouldn't have not given him the freedom he wants. I should respect him and give him the freedom, like how he respects me and gives me the freedom. I guess i really am in the wrong and I have to work on this. To trust, to understand and to let go a bit.

In a short time of 2 days, I have come to realise who are my true friends and who really cares about me. I really apologize for having neglected many of you and doubting you or not listenting to your advises. I would like to thank Erika, Jyun, BJ, Isaac and Quan, Janicia, Yvonne, Lynette, Kevin, Kenny, Lyn, Juliet, Andrew, Darren, Eugene G & S, Leslie, my parents, my sis and last but not least Benny. These people cared for me and was there for me. This is really the first time i've ever felt so cared for and so supported. I've really never known there were so many people who cares for me. I have never felt this before. I'm really touched and no words can describe how grateful I am. Thank you all. The only way i can show gratification would be for me to be strong, and not disappoint you all. Give me time, i will be better. I will stand up on my feet again and be strong.

Not forgetting Melvin, though initially i had difficulties getting along with him and dislikes him. But overtime, i have accepted him as a friend. And He also did play a role in telling me how Benny is feeling, what he wants and what he thinks. As i've just read from the "working with anger" book, it says that the people who are helping u to change and improve is your enemy, not God or Buddha. Buddha is always patient and nice. Enemies are the ones that are giving you chances and opportunity to learn to subdue and control your anger.

As i'm listening to the chant..this is what it says...
May i be free from enmity and danger
May i be free from mental suffering
May i be free from physical suffering
May i take care of myself happily
May my parents, teachers, relatives and friends, fellow dharma farers
Be free from Enmity and danger
Be free from mental suffering
be free from physical suffering
May they take care of themselves happily

It's the end...

2 weeks was definitely not enough for me to prove myself. I really needed more time! Why do you have to give up so soon? 3 years of time and effort has all been flushed down the drain. Is seperation the best solution? It's just a shortcut! Why does things have to end up this way??!! If you still love me why dont you believe that i will change? Give me more time and we'll be happy once again...
What I hate most now is this forgetting process, which is the most painful. How do I stay on and stay strong..It seems so difficult for me to face anyone and anything now!! HOW???!!!! I'M SPEECHLESS!!!!

World Cup Face Painting Fever @ Week 2

Another week of world cup fever at Cineleisure. This time i set up my face painting booth on level 1, at the external area. Business was much better!! Not like i'm making money, it's a free service, but it's just satisfying when people want to get their face or hand painted. Last night Erika and I painted at least 10 people! Unlike last week, only about 2 per day.
One of the Singapore Idol's finalist from the first season, this guy, i can't remember his name lah. He and his whole group of about 8-9 friends all painted. Some wanted to paint Thailand flag cos they're from thailand, one painted singapore, and one painted holland with the text holland painted below the flag, cos don't want people to mistake that as Serbia Montenegro. Haha. Check out pictures below lah :D
Looks fun right??!!! Come down and let me paint you lah! Erika and I will be there every fri and sat 8pm - 11pm for the whole month of June :D

World Cup semi finals on big screen tickets !!!

Hey hey all! Not sure how many people reads my blog but i'm just trying my luck lah! :D

Anyone keen on semi final matches on big screens (cineleisure cinema halls)??
I've got a really good deal here! Just pay $18, you'll get:
- 1 E2Max card for 1 year membership (worth $18)
- 1 goodie bag welcome pack (worth $38. Includes E2max e-game vouchers, bowling vouchers, limited edition trexi, electronic gaming monthly magazine, lanyard, tote bag)
- 1 x Cathay Cineleisure E-Cinema movie vouchers (worth $9.50 and can be used to watch any movie that is screened in E-cinemas, and any time)
- 5 x tickets to catch Semi Finals on big screens at Cathay Cineleisure Orchard.
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Just that simple, $18 and everything is yours!!!! Without any conditions!

Help me spread the words, and drop me a msg here or email me at aiko_strawberry28@hotmail.com if you're interested.
Show your support please :D CheeRs!

World Cup Fever at Cineleisure

Just in case you don't know, you can actually catch nightly screening of live soccer matches at Cineleisure E2Max @ Cine-L9 (Level 9). Alot of activities going on at Cathay and E2Max!
Click here for more details lah!

Every fri and sat nights, I'm there to do face / hand painting of flags for free!! So support your fav team, and support me, come let me paint on you lah!!! :P See below, i painted the Korean flag! U want brazil also can ah! Come lah :p
My friend Erika will paint soccer ball for you! :P

Coming Back Performance

RISE will be performing at Singapore Street Festival 2006, Thursday 8th July 8pm at Cineleisure. This time, I'm doing a Coming back performance. No no it's not going to be SLUFFLE!
I was with RISE 3 years ago. RISE is actually a sing and dance girl group, and had performed at quite a few places before. Well well, i miss performing, so since I'm still not VERY old and still got a bit of that performing zest and energy, I thought i can just make a little come back on the stage. :D
I'll just be singing lah, no time to practice dance with my 2 seniors, Jyun and Erika :p
If you wanna hear how horrible I sing, do come down and support but dun throw eggs lah k :P no banana skins too :P
It's late now cos just got back from practice. Super tiring and hectic week this week. Good nite for now :)

A ray of hope

I've been given ONE LAST CHANCE....and this time...i will have to no matter what...take this chance and make life happy for both of us... I will be better..and I have to be better...it's just for my own good..and also for our own good.
Please have faith in me...faith in us...my dear baby..my dear friends...a better me will emerge for a better life and future. I must be happy and I will be happier...cos I want to be!

The end has come...

Many unforseen stuffs has happened for the past 2 weeks. Things that I didn't even expect could happen.
After coming to 3 years of happiness and sadness...things will be coming to an end soon...something I really don't wish to happen...someone i can't be without...many things that I have gained throughout these years...may be coming to an end soon.
I know..there are no shortcuts to life, but some people are strong enough to go on...some may not be strong enough to even hold on. Some people likes to take short cuts in every aspect of life...some doesn't. Some just don't give a damn at all.

My Baby..I just want to tell you that i'm sorry...and i've taken too many chances in life already and I know there are not many more left. I thank u for your guidance and care and love. These few years has been a fruitful one... both emotionally and physically. both your babies will remember you for life and will always love you... eternally... you've been really special..you were my sunshine... you were my meaning to life... Our future is not meant to be seen, it's meant to be created...but life has just that few chances for one to take, to make things happen. I guess the chances I'm given has way exceeded it's limits. I'm really sorry...i really am...

BigWalk 2006

First time in my whole life!! :D
I was the one who initiated, and invited the whole "Occasional Gang"
Presentees:
- Me, Benny, Melvin, BJ, Isaac, Quan, Erika, Jyun, Sabrina. (total 9)
The very first ever healthy group activity we ever had, for the last 4 years!
All was supposed to report at 6.45am at Plaza Singapure bus stop, to take the shuttle bus into kallang, all were late !!!! Except Melvin, Benny and I were on time, so we sat at Macs and had breakfast while waiting for them.
Let me announce... JYUN, ISAAC and BJ, hhuurrr wake up at around 6.45am, and that's the meeting time!!! These people...hhmmm. Nvm...
Other than the late thingy...everything went on well!!!
It was really fun! It was quite difficult during the first 3Km, guess it's the hot sun and sweat and us not getting used to such OUTDOOR fun that's causing us all to dread along the way (otherwise, all will be more than glad to just stay home and MAHJONG!!! but not me lah). After we all hit 5km, everything seemed really easy.Benny and Melvin cracked alot of funny jokes and made lots of funny movements along the way. Catch the video clip below.
I jogged and walked along the way.. I KNOW I KNOW IT'S BIG WALK...but i just wanted to jog cos i miss jogging! and it's been like dunno how long since i got into the sun! Anyways..i'm just so proud of myself, in the hot sun (and i hate sun and being in the sun cos i'll get headache!), i finished 10km without stopping to rest...and I'm the first among my group to finish the 10km. also becos i was rushing for time! My hr manager was waiting for me at the ending point! :p
Anyways... see pics below lah :p





Click here if you can't see the video clip.